Notes from Superryan.

Love of a Father.

2009-09-25T18:12:00.001+08:00

The love of a father.
It's peculiar.
While love is meant to give positive feelings,
a father's love may attract dislike and hatred.
A father's love.
Often misinterpreted and misunderstood.
It was never meant for straight-forward.
A father's love.
Unsung sacrifices,
unheard cries.
A father's love.
Invisible to sons and daughters,
never well expressed.
A father's love.
It's there, you cannot see or feel it,
but it's always there.
A father's love.
A sad song,
it's beauty only to be seen until the final hours,
the last breath.
The sad song.
Never to be sang again.
A father's love.
Sing it with him.
Cherish it.

Trying a different approach to poetry instead of those rhymy-bhymy ones.

And no my dad's not dead.

It's just a thought that I want to share.

A father's love.

I have it.

Superryan

Thought #197

2009-09-18T02:18:00.001+08:00

You come outside
To view the faint sunset
Light bewildered by trees
Shines through quietly
You glide your soft black hair
Perched behind your ear
And in this moment I feel at home
Beneath the interior
You are my humble abode...
Your company is soothing
Calming and reassuring
Inside, the wind chimes ring
You saunter and my hearts sings
Bit by bit I begin to recognize
The enchanting glow in your subtle eyes
Hidden in all abstract paintings
It’s you; what all artists see
You are poetry.

Take away love

and our earth is a tomb.

Superryan

I Hate Sneak Attacks.

2009-09-08T02:00:00.005+08:00

He was innocent and feeling good.

But that was before this song sneaked up behind him

and gave his emotions a beating.

And he had no chance against it.

Superryan

For All Who Loves MJ. :)

2009-09-02T23:21:00.003+08:00

A treat. A tribute to no doubt the best performer on earth.
Or rather regretfully, in earth.

Beautiful aint it?

That David Sides guy really deserves some credit.

So for those who hasnt, subscribe to him!

He deserves it, I believe.

:)

Oh, the songs played in this medley are:

Black and White
Thriller
Heal The World

The Way You Make Me Feel

Smooth Criminal

Human Nature

I'll Be There

and once again i regret not taking up piano since young.

Superryan

:(

2009-08-24T04:00:00.004+08:00

oh look at how far we've come.

how far we've come, how far we've come.

nearly six years of friendship.

and you rmb right? you were my first ever crush in Seafield.

Before I switched target to *ahem*. you know who la.

hahahahaha.

then came like you said. Pet brother and Sister. Ty and Kent the parents.

There was Edna, Kristin, Doon and Melvin too.

And then after PMR, all splitted.

The Damai family were no longer as close as before.

Some even turned almost strangers.

But we remained close friends!

And slowly, and slowly. We made it through form5.

Then came the brotherhood. :)

Six long years of friendship.

And now you'll be gone for six long years.

Ah the irony.

And Im missing you badly already. :(

Coming back for holidays, webcamming, skype-ing, msn-ing wont be enough.

We all know that the feeling will never be the same as compared to when you're here for a long term.

But hey, the thing about friendship is that no matter how far you are from us,

how long you stay there and not coming back,

how much your face changed by all the wrinkles you get through the 6 years,

as long as you hold true to it,

it'll never change. :)

But still must come back for visits okay? And I'll promise you I'll DRIVE you to the Eye of Malaysia when you come back to Malaysia k? Provided you're staying long enough.

Promise!

And nah, a song for you.

THE song.

haha. :)

we'll never say bye bye. :)

_______________________________________________________________________________

Speaking of departures,

Im heading to another OA mission trip early morning tmr.

Again, no telephone line.

So dont bother calling. Leave a msg or something. Or email.

Be back by Wednesday.

Till then,

i'll be seeing you,

when i see you.

but for the moment,

i guess i'll just miss you.

:')

Strawbear-bear

Two More Days!

2009-08-12T03:30:00.002+08:00

A look on what's kept me busy throughout this week.

...

My take on Bruce Willis!

I know, it looks retarded in a way. But I tried my best as a beginner. :)

anyway, had to draw 10 figures like this in one week to pass up for my Figure Studies.

One drawing takes at least 2 hours for me to finish.

I did two to four drawings per day.

Seriously man, ate up so much of my time.

But nevertheless, after I passed the 10 drawings, sit for the reference drawing test tomorrow, on thursday present my final project and assignments compilation, and then pass up my sketchbook and sit for drawing test on Friday, I'll be free!

I promised my bed I'll be lying on it for at least 12 hours per day.

Did you know I've slept less than 28 hours this whole week?

Falling sick :S

So yeah, better head off to bed.

Be updating when holidays starts!

Till then! :)

you cant play on broken strings.

Superryan

I Wanna Bore The Shyt Out of You!

2009-08-04T11:18:00.002+08:00

The Color Green

The color green. Often identified as a secondary color, a mixture of yellow with blue or cyan. The complementary color of red. Or scientifically, a perception of which is produced by light having a spectrum dominated by energy with a wavelength of roughly 520–570 nanometers. But these are not the ways to interpret the color green. Getting a deeper insight of the color will show you that it is more than meets the eyes.
Further studies into the color green will tell you that, it is not just what it is being commonly identified as. All over the world, the color green is being used as a tool, a symbol emotionally, spiritually and culturally. The color green can be a very effective weapon on emotions if used well. The color itself can represent and in many occasions, trigger various emotions. Green triggers the following positive emotions: hope, growth, good health, freshness, soothing, sharing, and responsiveness. Its negative attributes are envy, greed, constriction, guilt, jealousy and disorder. (Understanding Color Emotion Triggers, Part 1A 1994-2006)
A study conducted shows that different tones of green actually cast a different emotion on different types of people. In this study, ten teenagers of age ranged between 16-20 were shown three images that are plainly filled with different tones of green. The first one to be a dark tone of green, the second a light, fluorescent green and lastly a murky olive green, the teenagers involved in the study gave different emotional reactions for each color that was shown to them. For dark green, it gave the teenagers the feeling of being in a forest, calm, nature, dirt, gloomy and mood less, evil, peace, tranquility, somber, cold and stress, moody. On the other hand, the light/ fluorescent green evokes sickness, shock and surprise, aggressiveness, cheerful, refreshing feelings in the teenagers. A couple of teenagers have actually find it sharp, annoying, blinding and disliked it. One particular student who is studying architecture found it sustainable and supportive. And lastly, the olive green. It triggered feelings like youth, energy and life, growth and plants, peace, harmony, calm, mellow, meaningful, and soothing. One teenager found it surprisingly to be containing mysterious elements and evoked a somewhat curious feeling in her. While on another note, the architecture student found the color durable. And another teenager found it especially calming and stated that it is very eye catching and that she would stare at it for a long period of time. The study showed that the tone of a color determines the positive or negative messages it sends, how people look at it and how it attracts likes and dislikes. It also showed that a person’s profession or interest also affects the way they interpret the color. For example, the architecture student who find the colors relating to the feeling of support and solitude in a way. Giving his profession is based on buildings and infrastructures, his perceptions on the colors were somehow influenced by the ideas instilled in him through all the studies on architecture.
With the color’s ability to grasp and evoke emotions, it is evident that it is widely used as a tool for promotion, sales encouraging and crowd attracting for business and a tool for calming down emotions, soothing people’s feelings and promoting peace. Color is a meaningful constant for sighted people and it's a powerful psychological tool. By using color psychology, you can send a positive or negative message, encourage sales, calm a crowd, or make an athlete pump iron harder. (Psychology of Color n.d.) Certain restaurants tend to the paint their exterior or interior with a soothing tone of green as it gives their customer a warm and soothing feeling of being in a forest and therefore savor their dishes better. But they have to be careful while choosing the tones because certain tones of green can also represents evil and sickness. If a customer takes his/her meal when being covered by fluorescent green paints, it is unavoidable that he/she would have minimal appetite and for some people, a stomach wrenching sensation. Other than that, as a calming green is very soothing to the sense, certain hospitals tend to use light green rooms because they too are found to be calming to patients. (Psychology of Color n.d.) Helping in the rejuvenation of the hospital’s patients.
As of the current hype of global warming across the world. The green’s association with nature is now used widely as a term referring to environmentally friendly produce or practices. (Norman 2009) You will find posters promoting recycling (very evidently, the worldwide symbol of recycling.), taking care of Mother Nature filled with (or at the very least have an element of) the color green all over it. In the marketing industry, green can also represent wealth, money, affluences and capitalism. Due to the color of the United States banknotes. (Norman 2009) So it is notable that most businessmen would associate their company with the color green. For example: Starbucks, The Body Shop and Spritzer. As hypothetically for a spiritual superstition they may have thought that the fact that green represents wealth may help their business prosper. The color green may also be a very approving factor in the packaging of products. Packaging is a very important marketing strategy to glamorize your product in order to attract the consumer’s attention. Most consumers judge a product by its packaging before buying. So it is logical to say attractive packaging is crucial in order to get the first time buyers to buy your products. (Kam 2007) Therefore choosing the right tone of green in certain packaging may give the product the extra boost of attractiveness.
In terms of spirituality, the color green is also used in many different aspects. As a note, the color green signifies health, tranquility, peace and calmness, harmony, renewal and life itself. Therefore it is no surprise to find people in the process of spiritual healing using green as a healing tool itself. Similar to the idea used for the green room a room in theater or televisions sets where performers and guests go to relax, being surrounded by green calms down the senses and therefore people will find it easier to concentrate and focus on whatever they are doing. Researchers have also found out that green can improve reading ability. Some students may find that laying a transparent sheet of green paper over reading material increases reading speed and comprehension. (Van Wagner n.d.) One may find reading, studying or working in a greenish environment like a garden or a green room may help boost their work rate and effectively reduce the stress that comes along with the work since green is thought to relieve stress.
The color green also has a relatively vast involvement in cultures all over the world. For an instance, In Celtic myths the Green man was the God of fertility. (Morton n.d.) Therefore the color green has ever since been a symbol of fertility. And in the 15^th Century the color green was once the preferred color choice for wedding gowns (Van Wagner n.d.) There is also a very odd belief that anyone who chooses a green m & m (an American candy which contains an assortment of different colored chocolate sweets) is sending a somewhat sexual message. Green has been reinterpreted by late 20th century American culture to signify a state of heightened sexuality in this specific situation. (Morton n.d.) This was most probably stirred up by the slight connection the color green has with fertility.
Another widely known connection between green and culture is most probably the association of The Republic of Ireland and the color green. Although it was stated that the actual national color of the country is St. Patrick’s blue, the country seemed to have more associations with the color green. This is perhaps due to the very green landscape of rural Ireland, which led Irish poets to describe Ireland as the "Emerald Isle." Also, to introduce Christianity to Ireland, St. Patrick used a shamrock (which is green), and in the late 1700s when Ireland was struggling for independence, "green" was worn as a color of sympathy for the Irish cause to such a degree that wearing the color green was outlawed around 1776. This history seems to have created an eternal association between Ireland and the color "green". (Meradeuw 2008) It is also notable that many people tend to visualize St. Patrick as a man dressed in green suits. This in reality was not true.
The Islamic world has also deemed green as a very important color. It is noticeable that majority of mosques’ decorations are green in color. Bindings of Qurans with green. Traditional clothing in green. Even the flags of Iran, Saudi Arabia, and the Palestinian group Hamas include the color green in them. But why is the color green so strongly associated with the Islamic world? There are several argued reasons. And among them are that green was supposedly Mohammed's favorite color. The father of Islam, the Islamic of prophet is said to have worn a green cloak and turban, and his writings are full of references to the color green. A passage from the Quran describes paradise as a place where people "will wear green garments of fine silk." One hadith, or teaching, says, "When Allah's Apostle died, he was covered with a Hibra Burd," which is a green square garment. Another reason is that it is a symbol of nature and life, especially potent in the dry desert. Mohammed invoked this connection when he wrote about a folkloric figure called al-Khidr, or "the Green One," who symbolizes immortality. There is also a speculation that because green is in the middle of the color spectrum and Mohammed preached moderation, one complements the other. (Beam 2009)
One of the most popular associations the color green has with is definitely the Christmas colors. Being coupled with red, people all over the world would have recognized it immediately as Christmas colors. All these while, people have always assumed that the green among the two Christmas colors were originally ideas originated from the color of Santa Claus’ elves, Christmas trees or holiday wreaths. But the truth is the origin of the Christmas colors are actually based on Christian faith and historical facts. (Skutelnik 2008) Skutelnik (2008) stated that the color green is a natural representation of eternal life, specifically the evergreen tree and how it survives through the winter season. That’s why, in Christian belief, green represents the eternal life of Jesus Christ. For the historical fact, she stated that back in the 14th Century, churches presented Miracle Plays—religious plays used to educate the illiterate public. Traditionally on December 24, the church presented The Paradise Play, the story of Adam and Eve and the Garden of Eden. And in place of an apple tree—as they weren’t available in winter—they fastened apples to the branches of a pine tree. Using a pine to represent the Tree of Good and Evil became a common practice among churches and they began incorporating the tree into their Christmas displays each year. But it didn’t stop there. Following the church’s example, people began assembling pine trees in their homes and decorating them with red apples. This act introduced two modern traditions: the Christmas tree and our seasonal colors, green for the pine tree and red for the apples.
All in all, it is very intriguing to see how enormously vast the color green is being interpreted by every culture. How it plays so many different roles emotionally, spiritually and culturally all across the world. How it has the ability of healing, relieving stress and calm down senses that we human so often needed these days. And the uses of the color green can just go on and on. And the thing here is, by seeing how green is being used and interpreted in so many perspectives and histories, it really makes you wonder: is green really just a color?
written by Ryan Ng Hsien Yoong. August 03 2009

Completely written by me. With help of various resources of course.

I know, 2000 of pure hard Lucida Sans Unicode materials on nothing but green alone.

Damn awesome right?

If you did digest all 2000 words in that academic writing into ur head, congratulations. You have just overcame ultimate boredom. But if you dont, I understand. :D

Finished this at 7:30am earlier. Am going to pass it up at college now. And then I'll come home, and sleep like there's nobody's business.

See ya.

green green green green green green

green green green green

green green

...

Superryan

A Song. For You.

2009-07-30T01:09:00.001+08:00

I texted a postcard, sent to you,
Did it go through?
Sending all my love to you.
You are the moonlight of my life every night.
Giving all my love to you.
My beating heart belongs to you,
I walked for miles 'til i found you,
I'm here to honor you,
If i lose everything in the fire,
I'm sending all my love to you.

With every breath that i am worth

here on earth,
I'm sending all my love to you.
So if you dare to second guess,
You can rest assure
That all my love's for you.

My beating heart belongs to you,
I walked for miles 'til i found you,
I'm here to honor you,
If i lose everything in the fire,
I'm sending all my love to you.

My beating heart belongs to you,
I walked for miles 'til i found you,
I'm here to honor you,
If i lose everything in the fire,
Did I ever make it through?

dududu~

Superryan

V-va-va-va-vanilla Bear!

2009-07-26T23:12:00.002+08:00

Mr. Chuah Tse Yuen.

Born 26/07/1991

To the closest bear I'm with in the Bear family,

We have always looked gay together fromt the beginning.

But like we so favorly quoted :

"There is nothing gay about it in our eyes. :)"

Happy 18th Birthday bff!

It's been a loooooooooong 5 and a half years! Actually it could be longer than that.

Just that we can't really recall being friends of each other during Kindergarden.

Hahahahhaha.

Leo and Friendship:
People are attracted to Leo's zest for life and their warm spirit. They have the ability to lift up one's spirits and provide encouragement when times are rough. Their enthusiasm attracts people, Leos are social butterflies, not because they want to be but because people always naturally gravitate and surround the Leo. Leos are very difficult people to not like, they are usually fairly balanced, realistic people. They never dwell on the past and they will think you are strange if you do. Some Leos might be too caught up in themselves and be very self-centered but they are never too self-absorbed to help anyone who needs it. They pamper their friends and treat them well. A Leo is the ultimate friend. They do not hold a grudge and they are very forgiving. They have respect and understanding of people's differences.

Bear Family. :D

:) like u said, let's multiply the years of our friendship by 10!

A lil insight of my own. :P

What it's Like to Date a Capricorn Man:
The Capricorn man is very physical and passionate, but not emotional (on the outside). Deep inside he yearns for love but this takes a long time to become reality, he is very reluctant to place trust in another person. Show him how much you admire him and earn trust gradually over time. He is very faithful, probably the most faithful of all zodiac signs. Underneath his secretive mysterious nature is a romantic streak with a strong sensual side, this side is completely hidden and once unlocked, you'll be amazed at the transformation this man has undergone! Patience and trust is key with a Capricorn man, he has so much to offer the right woman who will wait for him.

love,

Strawberry Bear

You Black and White Son of a Gun!

2009-07-22T02:10:00.001+08:00

Charlie the Unicorn Series

episode 2&3 (MUST WATCH!)

2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RIuFFkPaNpE

3: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ma2LvXPqPwg

Tankmen Series

other episodes (watch accordingly)

2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-qKpOYOBV1o

1.5: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-LqjyqDYNUU

0.5: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qI1Nd0kx4q4&feature=related

and my favorite.

Tankmen Infinity

enjoy.

"We gotta be sneaaaaky Charliee, sneaaaaaaaaaky~"

Superryan

Duo of My Life. :)

2009-07-19T02:00:00.000+08:00

Cayang Lim Kok Ping

born on 17/07/91.
Happy Legal Birthday bro. Two years of friendship but it felt like ages already.

May our brothership prevail, cayang!

Love you. :D:D

Felicia Low Swee Chin. :)

born on 19/07/93

Felicia oh Felicia. What's there to say when everything's been said? :) Just want to wish you

a verrrry sweeeet sixteen! Enjoy sixteen when it's still there. Seventeen and eighteen will

never be as same as sixteen. :( God bless and take care.

BE HAPPY!

to come by people

who mean the world to you

is like coming by

a moon that's blue.

Superryan

Sonnet 109.

2009-07-16T01:35:00.000+08:00

O, never say that I was false of heart,
Though absence seemed my flame to qualify.
As easy might I from my self depart
As from my soul which in thy breast doth lie.
That is my home of love; if I have ranged,
Like him that travels I return again,
Just to the time, not with the time exchanged,
So that myself bring water for my stain.
Never believe though in my nature reigned
All frailties that besiege all kinds of blood,
That it could so preposterously be stained
To leave for nothing all thy sum of good;
For nothing this wide universe I call
Save thou, my rose, in it thou art my all .

For never was a story of more woe

Than this of Juliet and her Romeo.

Ryan Shakespeare

What a Sad Case Blog.

2009-07-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

You know, as I sulk and feel bad for not updating my blog often. It made me sat down and wonder why it happens. And suddenly it struck me.

I didnt update not because I dont have time or Im lazy. I didnt because I..

Have nothing to blog about -> No interesting stuffs that's happening in my life recently which indirectly leads to the fact that.:

I Have No Life.

(D:)

Sides that, Design1 Final project, Study Skills 2000 words Academic writing (using of Wiki, Yahoo/MSN search or Google as main source of information not allowed), Final exams, Final presentations all coming reaaaaaaaal soon. Five weeks time and they still give you assignments in between.

S.H.I.T

Returning back to my lifeless state. Bye.

But in the end. It's fulfilling.

Superryan

I Keep Forgetting Birthdays These Days.

2009-06-24T01:04:00.004+08:00

Yeah, like the title said. I kept missing people's birthdays. If there isnt anybody reminding about June babies' birthdays (especially Christopher who's considered as a CLOSE FRIEND to me. wth.) . I would totally overlook them. Too many stuffs in mind. Why la, why? :(

First off, would like to make belated wishes to :

Ms. Wong Chai Qiao aka Sidekick.

& also

The ever Glammy Ms. Tiffany Leong Wenyi

Both a belated Happy 16th and 18th Birthday respectively. :)

And Im sorry I forgot your birthdays. *bangs wall*

And lastly, another belated wish:

Dear blog,

It has been a long three years hasn't it? I still remember the immature grammar I used my first posts with you. And how the language used in this blog slowly evolute and turned into a mature butterfly. Although not perfect, but my english using on you has surely improved a lot. And I have to partly thank you for that too, since writing on you is basically like writing an essay, I practice my writing everytime I update you.

Since I hated writing essay, these past three years has been filled with periods of my absence. With contributions by my laziness I failed to update you often and sometimes even leaving you dusted for months. There were also a period when I even shut you down but reopened you in the end. I just want to apologize for these days and the days to come. Bear with me blog, you'll be like my wife, a soulmate for many years to come. If you are human, you'd be the person that understands me the most and knows my history like ABC. But it's fine even you're not human, it'd be damn weird to be married to a human blog.

But thinking of it, are you even female? As I created you, I figured I have the power to assume your gender. So yeah, you should be a female blog. A hot female blog. And the next thing I expect is to see is for male blogs to come approaching you. If that's possible. Who knows? One day I might have to part with you as you go with another blog to make little junior blogs and form a blog family.

Man come to think of it, am I your father?

It depends on you fully though because I dont think Im qualified to be your father since I dont tend to you much. Okay anyway, I have another apology to make. And that is for forgetting your birthday. So right, here I go:

Happy Belated 3rd Birthday Rock Royalty/ Life of Superryan/ Notes from Superryan. :)

May I spend the years ahead even more committed to you.
"Peace in, Peace out. =)"
Your Irresponsible Blogger.

I know it's weird to celebrate a blog's birthday. Moreover with that damn random letter. But it served as a purpose of practising my writing before IELTS mid term exam this Friday. lol.

But yeah, my blog's birthday was on June 22nd. Two days ago. And I totally forgot about it. I never really wished my blog with birthday wishes the past two years and I promised to wish it this year. But I guess I missed it again. Gah.

Nevermind, next year!

Anyway, Gotta roll. Back to assignment rushing. >_>
(note the time. SIGH)

Felicia, my blog is 3 years and 2 days older than your's! :D
Oh and thanks for indirectly reminding me. :)
Superryan

My Family Has Twins!

2009-06-11T18:36:00.000+08:00

This is me. (in a wig)

This is my sister.

DONT WE LOOK SMASHINGLY ALIKE? :D
hahahahahahahhahahaha.

rate from 1-10.

good looking twins there eh?
Superryan

It's The Time Of The Year Again.

2009-06-04T22:18:00.000+08:00

I wonder when can I be part of this? :(

Sorry kawans, no proper updates.

I cudn't find time. :(

Was planning to update today but an assignment came up for Design1 due Monday and Im having church camp starting tmr until at earliest Sunday evening. So I had to try and rush the assignment. Bugger. But the assignment's enjoyable tho. :)

But anyway, yeah I mentioned it. I'm heading to Port Dickson (NUBE again. =.=) for Church camp. Hopefully I can find an ideal getaway there. Away from my current hectic lifeless-lifestyle. SIGH.

And during my absence. Mr. Mole Ho will be caretaking my Plurk account until Im back. So do expect lame posts by him.

(sorry Fel. I know it was your job. :P)

Signing off. Enjoyable assignment here I come. :D

Love,
Superryan

All Around Me Are Familiar Faces. Worn Out Faces, Worn Out Faces.

2009-05-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

My bathroom's fluorescent lamp went cuckoo today. So I gotta like do all my hygiene stuffs in the night under visual support by candlelight. But I got to admit tho. It's kind of a warm experience.

Warm as in illiterally. Not the heat from the candle.

Felt like as if I was in the vintage years ( waaaaay back before Thomas Edison invented lightbulbs ) when I was showering under the candlelight. Except that I have a heater, shampoo, conditioner and a nice water pump in my bank. To think that our ancestors used to live in this kind of environment, it must have been a pretty romantic era. But of course, troublesome when the time comes for them to read or do paperworks. :P

Okay anyway, my point here is that. It's a pretty good experience to live under the candlelight for even a brief moment. You should give it a try.

-

My first real WEEKENDS since college started had been quite restoring. Resting and having fun I've missed out during the weekdays thanks to assignments. It's been like 5 months since I've felt like that. So yeah, gotta take some time to get used to this hectic life which is in huge contrary to the relaxing life I've lived the past 5 months.

Oh and thanks to Thenesh. I came across this song of Adam Lambert's. His version of Mad World originally by Tears for Fears in the 80s.

SO.DAMN.EPIC.

After browsing his other songs. I was really impressed by him.

And even though Im not much of a AI follower here, I didn't understand why he lost.

But then I realized. Oh, Kris Allen is hot. No wonder. :)

Adam Lambert should have won even if he's gay.

Fullstop. :D

and I find it kinda funny,
I find it kinda sad.
Superryan

Sometimes We Wish That We Could Turn Back Time, Don't We? :)

2009-05-18T22:19:00.000+08:00

TOA'S ASSIGNMENTS ARE KILLERS!

Seriously. It's only been the second week and I'm being flooded by assignments and deadlines already. TERRIBLE!

I guess it's really true that some people say that the 1st year will be an asshole.

Nonetheless, at least and thank goodness I'm enjoying doing the assignments, for now.

Oh and IELTS, it's an asshole for a subject. I find it difficult to handle despite my strong foundation in the English subject. All the questions given in the course book are so tricky!

But studies and work aside. I must say, I'm potentially loving my classmates. :)
I have cool, fun, funny (FCD0905-1, u all know who. HAH), friendly, sporting and caring people for classmates!

How nice is that. :D

But of course, it's only the 2nd week. I hardly get to know them thoroughly yet. And we're yet close enough to begin doing CRAZY stuffs. HAHA.

The time will come.

>:)

Anyway this will b a short update. Since I still have assignments to attend to, but I was convicted to update my blog. So yeah. Routine stuff.

Having a blog is quite troublesome. But an enjoyable/exploitable luxury at certain times. :)

Tata.

as life goes by, romantic dreams will stop.
so I bid mine goodbye and never knew,
that so close was waiting.
And I can only wish that I could turn back time.
Superryan

Mr. Freshman.

2009-05-07T19:19:00.000+08:00

Round Face FTW.

Ahh, something that Im going to walk around with hanging on my neck quite often for the next four years.

First day of college, or rather the first of the two orientation days was rather dull. Maybe because I was there without anyone close or comfortable to be with. But still, I've got to admit that I kind of liked the "fresh new start" kind of feeling. The feeling that everyone you are strangers and that it's time to make new friends.

But I failed to make one today.

I noticed I was pretty anti-social. Maybe it's because of the lack of sleep ( prior to the inability to sleep from the exciting thoughts of college's first day ), or maybe Im just the type of person that needs time to set my foot in.

Whatever it is. I better not be what I was today, tomorrow.

"As a designer, you must talk and talk and talk and talk and talk."
Quoted by Eric Leong.

Speaking of Eric Leong. Im sure some of you know who he is by just the mention of name.

If you dont,

That baldie and all those furniture and decorations should ring a bell.

Funny guy. Really.

Yeap, he's Eric Leong. An Interior Designer who's famous for being the host of Casa Impian. A television programme which documents Eric going around houses making makeovers for from a normal plain house to a glamourous residence.

And to my very surprise, he's a lecturer in The One Academy.

Awesome or what?

The only downside is, he's only teaching in the Interior Design courses. Which I'm not in as I'm taking up Foundation in Communication Design.

Even it's only for one hour. I could clearly see how efficient Eric delivered his teachings, tips and advices to us as he came in the hall and surprised everyone for a talk on "I Want To Be A Designer."

He listed down criterias that are critical for us in order to be a successful designer and even entertained us by demonstrating and giving examples for each criteria. There were numerous of them and some were very typical : creativity, heart to learn, have confidence and so on.

But there were special cases brought up by him, humorous ones too. For example, you have to be a funny guy. Which was weird to me at first. But it made sense. What makes a guy funny? His creativity that attributes to his ability to make others laugh.

There was also another weird criteria : you must be a super camwhore.

According to Eric. Whenever you attend an event as a designer. Be in as many pictures as you can. Because if it comes out in the papers. People remember your face. It contributes alot in your status climb as a designer.

Yet again, weird but it made sense.

All in all. It was a very special session with him. I appreciate him spending his time with us even if it's just for a short while.

A person to look up to really. Did you know that he holds FORTY EIGHT posts in his career?

48 posts as in like, being a Creative Director for different companies. A Design Consultant for multiple companies. Hosting numerous shows and so on.

And he is able to manage his time to do his job tremendously.

Not forgetting to mention, his works are one of a kind.

Truly, I find myself admiring him.

Thus, I want to be like Eric Leong. :D

And I really hope that I'll have to chance to be taught by him again.

Oh well, 2nd day of college tmr! Finally dividing into classes. :)

I noticed I've changed so much recently.
But, for the better or for the worse?
That's the confusing part.
Superryan

At First Glance.

2009-04-28T20:04:00.001+08:00

50 First Reactions

Okay, so I was supposed to write out whatever that flashes through my mind the first thing when I go through each of the questions. So ah, here goes.

1. Beer: Budweiser.

2. Food: Fats.

3. Relationships: Deteriorating.

4. Crush: David Archuleta.

5. Power Rangers: Childhood.

6. Life: house.

7. The President: Obama.

8. Yummy: Fats.

9. Cars: Ford Shelby Mustang GT500KR

10. Movie: Hobby.

11. Halloween: Lame.

12. Sex: Gender.

13. Religion: Unreal.

14. Hate: Evil.

15. Fear: Snakes.

16. Marriage: Bliss.

17. Blonde: Bond.>_>

18. Slippers: Flippers.

19. Shoes: Odour.

20. Asians: Me.

21. Past time: Internet.

22. One night stand: Standing for one whole night.

23. My cell phone: Handy.

24. Smoke: Global warming.

25. Fantasy: Well, fantasy.

26. College: Incomparable to High School.

27. High school life: Retrospects.

28. Pajamas: Love it when girls have them on.

29. Stars: Dream.

30. Center: of the universe.

31. Alcohol: Bacardi Big Apple.

32. The word love: , It's a funny thing.

33. Friends: Backbones.

34. Money: Necessary.

35. Heartache: Sigh.

36. Time: Goes By.

37. Divorce: Unlikely.

38. Dogs: Lovely.

39. Undies: Giordano.

40. Parents: Family.

41. Babies: Breathless - Shayne Ward.

42. Ex: Ahhhh.

43. Song: Lifehouse's

44. Color: Green.

45. Weddings: Paul Tan!

46. Pizza: Hut.

47. Hangout: Fridays and Saturdays! :D

48. Rest: Sleep.

49. Goal: FIFA Online.

50. Inspiration: You.

Tomorrow, is a different day.
Superryan

My Love For You Was Blind,

2009-04-26T20:21:00.005+08:00

Staring right back in the face,
A memory can't be erased,
I know, because I tried.
Start to feel the emptiness,
And everything I'm gonna miss,
I know, that I can't hide.

Start to breathe and fake a smile,
It's all the same after a while,
I know, that you are tired.
Carrying the ones you lost,
A picture frame with all the thoughts,
I know, you hold inside.

All this time is passing by,
I think it's time to just move on.

You're coming back down.
You say you feel lost can I help you find it,
When you come around.
From time to time we all are blinded.
You're coming back down.
You don't have to tell me what you're feeling.
I know what you're going through,
I won't be the one that lets go of you

But when you come back down,
If you land on your feet,
I hope you find a way to make it back to me.
When you come around,
I'll be there for you,
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through.

One thing I'm really bad at : moving on.

I don't know, but it's just so hard for me.

It's tiring to pretend that I'm fine, but I hate getting sympathy at the same time.

I hate sympathy, it makes me feel so useless and insecure, weak.

But the worse part of moving on for me is not that, it's the damage it makes, the pain it brings.

Not physically, not mentally, not even emotionally.
But just, me.

It's been so long, that I've forgotten how to stand back up.
I've struggled, struggling.
But I'll learn, I'll cope.
I'm almost there, I know.
I will overcome it, whatever it takes, definitely.

Because you promised you would be happy.

-

I know, this post is so not me.

So emo.

But ahh, the quintessentiality of speaking your heart out. :)

-

He put the box he's rummaged the whole house for right in front of him. A box which he thought was perfect for whatever he's about to do. Looking at the box, he thought twice.
Or at least he tried to.
As whatever he planned to do seems so cliche. And being cliche is what he's always avoided being associated with. But still he decided it was an essential thing to do.
And he thought that the idea was beautiful.

After opening the cover of the box, he stretched his hands and fingers like he was about to do an exercise or the like. Then he started. He took two rubber wristbands, which were a couple out of a number of items that he's placed near him in preparation for this ritual. Smiling and thought back how these two wristbands were the first items he received even before the beginning. But yet the smile faded soon thereafter when he looked at one of the wristbands. The black one; The COURAGE wristband, which has snapped and rendered unwearable from it's exhaustation of being put on so often. He sighed a regret and put the wristband nicely into the box, along with the red one; PANAMA.

Then he found and took up another wristband near him. But this one was special. Because it was not rubber. It was plastic, a faded glowstick formed into a wristband.

And suddenly he saw the irony as it appeared that the glowstick was the last item he received before the end. But he could only give a sad smile as he placed the glowstick alongside with the other two wristbands carefully.

Then came a tie, an olive green colored tie. He took it up and covered his nose with it, taking a soft sniff. And he was glad. Glad that the familiar scent which captivates him and which he loved so much was still there, although fading. Fondly he thought that keeping it in the box would preserve the scent.

But ah, why not a little foolishness if disappointment can be avoided?

Like a father to the tie, he folded it nicely and softly placed it into the box. Fitting just nicely into it. And he also placed in several items which were not really relevant, but contains of what he classified to be "precious memories". And he was sure those items deserved to be in there.

And finally, he picked up his wallet and opened it. Immediately spotting the last two items he wanted to put into the box: two photos. One of himself. And the other, a pretty photo of which instantly brought a word to his mind:

"Retard!"

The photo meant the world to him. How he used to get all angry when his friends pulled pranks on him by hiding the photo and he had to look for it. Worrying he'll never get to see it again. And he couldn't help but to be flowed with sadness looking at it. Then he took a deep sigh and placed the two photos nicely on the tie, next to each other.

And he was done.

He closed the box with it's cover and then stood there, looking at it. He was going to do it, but felt a sudden reluctant and pulled back, thinking how weird it would be talking to something lifeless. But then again, he corrected himself.

"They're not lifeless. They're alive. And they will last forever."

This line came from someone from his past long ago,referring to memories. And he made a smile, it was not fake, not happy nor sad. It was more like a smile of hope, of comfort.

Of love.

Then he did it. Or to be exact, he said it.

"Goodbye, until we meet again."

And he placed the box into eternity.

-

But I couldn't make you see it,

couldn't make you see it,

that I loved you more, then you've ever known,

a part of me died, when I let you go.

Superryan

These Days Aren't Easy Anymore.

2009-04-17T23:23:00.002+08:00

The world disgusts me.

The determination I see in today's world, disgusts me.

The passion people have in today's world, disgusts me.

The love that people have in today's world, disgusts me.

And even I myself, disgust me.

Why is it, that people get so tired of everything so easily?

Why is it, that some people give up, so easily?

Especially people in their youth, when they are being thrown at by home works, studies, curricular responsibilities and for some of them, relationship issues. They get tired of them so easily, give up on them so easily when things get a little rough.

"I can't handle the pressure of so many things at once."

Right, please reflect and look at your parents and other adults for goodness' sake.

Is your so called "too-much-pressure" comparable to them?

Yea, you have your home works and studies.
But they have works, assignments, projects and for some of them, an asshole for a boss to please.

Yes, you have curricular responsibilities.
But for goodness' sake, some of the adults cant even have fun, recreation because they are so eaten up by their job. And you think some of them enjoy being a committee in their own corporate ladder? At least you still can have fun being the President of one of your school's club. For adults? Take ex-US President George Bush and our very own ex-Prime Minister Badawi for an example. Nuff said.

Ah, you have relationship issues!
But your parents have a wife/husband to please and love, children to take care and nurture and not to mention their educational expenses to handle. And also their own parents to appreciate. Ultimately a family to keep together in one piece and provide for.

And you think what you're going through now is difficult to handle?

Hello, reality check please and thank you.

"I'm still young la, I have to enjoy life to the max!"

Ok, this statement. Let's just put it this way. I strongly suggest that it's only APPROPRIATE for teenagers below fifteen to say this.

If you're sixteen and above and you still think like this, I'm sorry, but you are immature.

What do you suggest builds the will your parents have, other adults have to go through the shithole they are going through?

Determination, Passion and Love.

They had the determination to go to their office everyday and please their boss, to face the tribulations brought in by their jobs and even family issues. They faced it with superhuman will and tried to solve them.

They had the ability to develop a passion for their job, for whatever they were doing at their office everyday and the passion for their family and love affairs.

They had the love, for their jobs and ultimately their family. By experience and after going through the burden bestowed upon them for some time, they learned how to love the things they had to do in a daily basis. They learned how to provide for their family unconditionally. They learned how to sacrifice.

And they practiced these qualities since young. You can ask your parents if you do not believe me. Ironically, they HAVE been through whatever we've went and going through in their youth days.

And compared to us, they handled them better than we do.

Why, why does teenagers our days find it so easy to be tired of everything? To give up? Has determination, passion and even love, extinct?

Or are we just plain spoiled?

Oh wait, that contributes to the extinctions.

So people, if you think studies, homeworks and a relationship is too much for you to handle, do you think you'd survive an adult's life?

Rocky roads, tribulations, challenges. We all have to go through them no matter what. There's never an easy way to success, to happiness, to love.

Please, the next time you want to give up. Think twice.

Sorry if I offended anyone. I just sincerely hope that this post would be a wake-up call to our dying generation.

because that day,

your words felt like a knife.

Superryan

We Were Both Young, When I First Saw You.

2009-04-14T18:07:00.003+08:00

Superstar. :)

My Taylor Swift, you did well.

I am very proud of you. :)

And err, be happy alright? It's been some time since I've seen your real happy face. :(

And I'm missing it!

Smile an everlasting smile.

Because the way your black eyes shined
when you do so,
put the Subang stars to shame. :)
Beloved

Fall of the Classic.

2009-04-08T18:21:00.003+08:00

Changes made in blog.

Spot the difference ;)

Rejoice Lazy Bums!
Superryan

No Hair, No Hair~

2009-03-31T02:35:00.003+08:00

Jeng Jeng Jeng!

Oh lookey here, whose head (using head here since there's lack of hairs) does this belong to?

On a Sunday afternoon, his parents were kind and caring enough to invite most of his close friends including me to visit him at the National Service camp. The blessed man who has such nice parents and friends is none other than...

Are you ready? XD

The Bruthar from another muthar, Chuah Tse Yuen.

Hahahhahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

Sorry, I had to laugh whenever I see this picture. Im so not used to his lack-of-hair head. XDXD

Now I must make sure I update often enough so that he doesn't see this post when he comes back for Easter. LOL

Check out his NERD LOOK. LOL!

So yeah, nine of us including the parents went to his campsite at Rawang (courtesy of Uncle Chuah and his Toyota Fortuner's spacious interior). And supposedly if im not mistaken they say only the families of those at NS are allowed to visit them during weekends but we managed to get through anyway.

So yeah, we've got a lot of weird stares from people there who must be wondering, "The parents are so productive."

And according to Tse Yuen, you are not allowed to talk to or even be seen with the opposite sex at the camp unless during meetings. So sad right? And he's already whining to get out of there as soon as possible with HELP Uni's help. So much for "Ok ar, quite nice. I kinda like it here." few days after he was there. The good impression didnt even last a week XD

He also said that the Bumiputera boys there literally watch porn that was stored in their phones early in the morning, together. Wtcrap? Im ok with people watching porn but watching it together? Its a BIG EWWWWW. Might as well have a gay party then.

Sick people.

Anyway, since the camp was a park by itself. We had a picnic! Weird as it sounds, this is my first time having a picnic. I dont have childhood memories running around a park playing around and then run under a tree to have nice foods. :(

Notice the "mats" we were sitting on. LOL

Tse Yuen looked like he was but he was not pissed. It was because of the weather, hot and sunny. And notice I was wearing a dark colored shirt? Yeah, I was basically suffering and trying hard not to sweat my butt off. Sigh I sweat so easily it irritates me sometimes. :(

But since there's coke and ice, I managed to control my HOT body temperature. :P

After chatting for around an hour, the weather suddenly changed (Malaysian weather, sigh) and it started to drizzle. And it was time to go home.

"Strawberry bear!"

His last words before I waved him goodbye, turned around and stepped into the car. And when I take another look at him again, he was facing against me walking back to his dorm.

It might sound gay but after all, he's my best friend. So..I missed him and miss him. :(

It feels so quiet around now since he went for NS. I dont see him online anymore, I don't play late night games with him anymore, I don't tease Eugene with him anymore, I don't see him on Saturday and Sunday at church anymore, I dont go out so often anymore since I usually hang out with him during weekends.

It's just so unusual not having him around.

And I'll to go through "unusual" for the next few months. Sigh

But ahh, I'll manage. I'm getting used to not be seeing my loved ones often already.

Absence makes the heart fonder

and famously quoted by my sweetheart:

Jauh dari mata, dekat dalam hati.

Be back soon, bud. :)

Love,

Superryan

And There's Hearts All Over The World Tonight. :)

2009-03-25T02:48:00.006+08:00

Outstanding since young. LOL

That was taken when I was standard 6. ;)

Anyway, I've been browsing Youtube today. And I've never told you this but I'm a big lover of piano instrumentals and covers and when I encounter nice ones. I'd be indulging that song over and over again without getting bored of it.

And then I found David Sides.

He brought my liking towards piano instrumentals to another level.

His covers are just...amazing. Indescribable. Just check him out.

Click here for his channel.

And so I present to you one of my favorite piece by him.

His cover on Chris Brown's With You.

It's just so beautiful right? I wish I could play this to Felicia but sadly, I've got no talents in playing the piano. :(

Enjoy his other covers!

Oh btw, poll's up on the left sidebar. It shall decide on whether or not my chatbox will live to see another day in this blog. It'll be up for two weeks. Vote up people!

Love,
Superryan

Ahhh.

2009-03-24T00:44:00.001+08:00

It happens to be that my comment box was not working previously. Well I think it's fixed now. Sorry for the inconvenience caused. Now, spam my comment box! >;D

And and thank you, Tzi Ying for pointing it out to me. Much appreciated!

Love,

Superryan

Remember,

2009-03-23T02:23:00.002+08:00

I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you, always.

I love you!
Superryan

And I Pray Everyday

2009-03-20T02:34:00.008+08:00

Who protects those who protects?

Hola! Once again my blog is being poorly updated. I must admit though that it wasn't because I'm busy. I have all the time to spend waiting for my college to start in one freaking month's time. It was because...well Im lazy and also there's zero inspiration on what to write in here.

Honestly speaking, I still currently have no inspiration on what to write. But I feel bad not updating my blog.

Oh wait, in fact. I do!

Pictures from Orang Asli's Mission Trip :D

I do warn you though, some of the pictures are really action-packed. Not for the faint-hearted. lol

Setting up mosquito nets to prevent unwanted annoyance during sleep at night.

Seriously, first time wearing raincoat in my life. XD

Check out Tse Yuen's spectacles. Lol

Mind you. I didnt have a mirror to look into for 3 straight days. Lol

Getting a ride back to base camp during the night. It rained before that so the floor was very muddy. The truck literally drifted on some occasions. Fun. Lol

Kevin looks so comical here. Haha

See what I mean by action-packed? XD

Bestie who's currently stucked in NS now. Wahahaha

"Boleh ada kerusi dan meja tak?"
And these fella brought them in less than 30 seconds. LOL

Dr Leow giving free medical treatments and consultings.

Yes, Robitussin heals whatever it's supposed to heal.

Professional hairdresser. XD

One truck got stucked almost falling by the roadside and we had to pull it up. Very action-packed. o_o

It was a very exhausting three days and we try and find every single chance available to rest.

But it doesnt harm giving away a little nap to get together for some sing-along of songs and playing of the guitar right? :)

Another action-packed picture. Fixing the rumah atap hall's light. XD

You do not want to know what we were doing. XD

Basically, it was a very action-packed three days two nights. XD

The Mysterious Breakfaster. LOL!

The Breakfasters!

Part of the team. :)

Chris and I.

Bryan being sodomized. XD

"HOW TO PLAY?!?!"

The hairdressers.

Those are basically it. It was a really good experience going there and reaching out the mankind. I felt even more superheroic after coming back from the mission. XD To those who have the chance to go for it but haven't been for one, I strongly suggest you do. The experience is priceless. :)

I guess the only fair thing to say is that when we forsake the life of other's, we're forsaking our own.

And I found this crazily accurate personality test from Clement's blog. It really gives me the chills! You should really give it a try!

Try it out HERE

Here's mine:

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

There, your Superryanology has just basically improved by a 150%. LOL

Anyway before I go, do you think I should revive my chat box? Vote inside the comment box please. Much appreciated. :)

that there will never be a day, that I'll have to watch you walk away.

Superryan

Back in Business!

2009-03-12T00:15:00.003+08:00

After several hours of brain smashing tweaking and sorting out the HTML, I've finally finished my 134234231th blog's transformation and the blog's up and running again. But to be honest Im not really satisfied with this layout, somehow I feel that something's missing. If you spot anything please do tell me? :)

Oh and notice the deduction of the cbox? Yeap, it's a hard decision but I decided to drop the cbox. As my layout's theme is "Old Town". I reckon leaving comments should be done the "old school" way. By leaving it in the blog's comment box! :D And there's also several new widgets being welcomed into the layout family. Do check them out.

And btw, I forgot to backup my link list when I changed the layout so everything was gone by the time I realized it. I've relinked every person I can possibly remember. But if you are left out, please do tell me. It's much appreciated. :)

Anyway, I'm currently having a slight fever, cough and flu and supposingly SPM results are coming out tomorrow. Yikes. I better go get myself a short nap now. ( Yes a short nap. Waking up for Man Utd's match later ;D )

Comment and Feedbacks please!

btw,
Happy First Month Sweetheart. :)
Superryan

Bring the hammer!

2009-03-09T22:01:00.001+08:00

Blog closed down temporarily for renovations. :)

Away.

2009-03-05T22:26:00.003+08:00

Im going for an Orang Asli Mission Trip tomorrow until Sunday. Till then, no handphone reception there. So if there is anything urgent, dont call me. Either send me an email or call my family if it is very urgent. Which I presume wont happen since Im kind of a relaxed guy. LOL

Anyway, pray for my safety. And that I wont come back with any unknown disease. Lol.

Jauh di mata, dekat di hati. :)
Superryan

A Song.

2009-02-28T02:06:00.008+08:00

He was surfing through Youtube as it was one of his daily routines. Being a student waiting for his SPM results and eagerly looking forward to start his college at May, surfing the net and IM-ing happen to be the only things available for him to do most of the time. Nevertheless, he never finds them boring ( Well sometimes but usually, he enjoys doing it ).

Anyway, he was checking around Youtube to look for a worthy song to treat his ears to and he was failing to do so. On the brink of giving up, a song suddenly came to Ryan. It was a song that he had heard from watching the "Bicentennial Man" for the fourth time that night. A movie that moved his heart so much he nevers get tired of watching it. And the soundtrack, a song sang by Celine Dion that he was once hooked to for quite a period was very moving and at the same time worth putting every inch of your ears to.

And it seemed to be months now ( maybe a year or so) when he last listened to it.

And there he was, sitting on his bended plastic chair in front of the computer, particularly staring on the Youtube's search bar. And his consciousness started tugging him and told him :"Come on, listen to it again!". Considering having no other song in mind at that time, he thought :"Why not?" and typed in four words along with Celine Dion into the search bar. At the same time, he opened another browser and searched up for the song's lyric so that he can recover his memory on what the song was all about after not hearing it for so long. When the Youtube's search was finished, he picked the first video that caught his attention, waited for it to load and pressed play.

As he listened to the very beautiful voice of Celine Dion, absorbed the atmosphere brought in by the song, measured the quintessentiality of the song's melody and read the wonderful lyrics. Chills was sent down his spine again and again. And once more he found himself falling in love with the song. But it's not just because the song was fantastic.

It was mainly because of how the song has brought significance to his current love life.

And then he decided, he had to share the beautiful song.

...

Back to reality! I love writing posts like writing a novel actually. Practise my english once in a while eh? So from now on, expect a 3rd person view kind of posts from me ;)

Anyway, the main highlight of this post is this song. So here goes!

Then You Look At Me - Celine Dion

Laugh and cry
Live and die
Life is a dream we're dreaming

Day by day
I find my way
Look for the soul and the meaning

Then you look at me
And I always see
What I have been searching for
I'm lost as can be
Then you look at me
And I am not lost anymore

People run
Sun to sun
Caught in their lives ever flowing
Once begun
Life goes till it's gone
We have to go where it's going

[Chorus]

And you say you see
When you look at me
The reason you love life so
As lost I have been
I'll find love again
And life just keeps on running
And life just keeps on running
You look at me and life comes from you.
From You.

And so, I dedicate this song to you, sweetheart. :)

And oh the movie,

If you haven't watch it. YOU HAVE TO WATCH IT! Highly recommended by me.

Bicentennial Man follows the life and times of the title character, an android (Robin Williams) who is purchased as a household robot programmed to perform menial tasks. The Martin family quickly learn that they don't have an ordinary robot when Andrew begins to experience emotions and creative thought. In a story that spans two centuries, Andrew learns the intricacies of humanity, life, and love.
Source :Rotten Tomatoes

That's about it. Oh and all the best to those taking part in SMK Seafield's Country Crossing tmr! :D

Adios.

I see the reason I love life so, when I look at you.
Superryan

Yesterday Once More.

2009-02-17T18:22:00.061+08:00

It could be appointed, maybe destined, or maybe I just had nothing better to do.

I read my blog backwards today. Dated back 22nd of June 2006 on my first post. Laughing hardly on my immature usage of grammar, occasional swearings, childish rants, embarrassing words typed out without second thoughts and so on.

But after laughing so hard and being so embarrassed of my old self, a sudden feeling of sadness and longing struck me. Accompanying all my past posts were pictures, pictures taken throughout the events/ activities I attended for the past three years.

And alongside the pictures, came memories.

Memories so fun, so interesting, so captivating and adventurous came back to me. And although those were good memories. A feeling of sadness showered me as I pondered upon them.

Knowing that each and every of these well kept memories will never repeat itself anymore.

I can attend the same events/ activities for one more time. But the dynamics of how it runs will never be the same. Never the same people, same personality and same moments and laughters.

And the memories created will just be new memories. Never able to replace the old ones.

For several moments when I was looking back at the pictures. I secretly hoped, desired that there will be a chance that it will be yesterday once more because

I missed those days.

2006:

2007:

2008:

...

and as he prepares to click on the "Publish Post" button after doing final touches on the post that he has just full heartedly made, the background music playing on his iTunes gave out a line so significant and sad that it made him pause.

He paused and thought of how that line plays the main part in bringing challenges in human's life. How it so influentially changes people's personality and how it so cruelly renders memories repeating themselves so impossible. He hated the line and detested it's existence, hated how the way of life is so cruel but in an ironic way, brings bliss and meanings into a person's life.

He hated how he had to live with it.

And then as if it's living, the line urged him to include it into the post. He hesitated, but thought twice and sighed. What could defeat the way of life? He took one last glance at all the pictures. And like flashes of light memories came before his mind once again and hopefully for the last time. He wiped what seems to be a tiny drop of tears off the corner of his eyes, typed in the line at the end of the post and finished his work.

"Growing up, growing up."
Superryan

090212

2009-02-12T00:56:00.011+08:00

Two days before Valentines,
A baby was born.
The baby was named :
LOVE.

:)

& the baby's mine to keep, :)
Superryan

Half-Dead Blog Wishes Trio a Happy Birthday. :)

2009-02-10T02:56:00.046+08:00

Dear Ping Ping Ping Ping Ping Ping Ping Ping Ping Ping Ping Ping,

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN!!! :)

Btw, check out my hands. Im RYAN CULLEN HAHAHAHA! =.=

Anyway,

Thanks for being a good friend of mine. I sincerely hope that you'll succeed in everything you do and most importantly, excel in both your studies and also your golf!

All the best Pinggggggggggg. :)

Oh, and you have my prayers on growing taller. LOL

and also of course, not forgetting

Dear Tiffany and Rachel Tan,

(Can you diffrentiate them? I can. Piece of cake. :P )

HAPPY SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAY!!!!! :D

Gosh two years have gone past now since I've first met you both when I was form four. Time really flies, eh? It seemed so much like it was just yesterday. :)

I kind of missed how close we were back then. Hanging out and all, until we got distant last year. Talking less among us. I wonder what went wrong? Sigh.

But still, I want to wish both of you a warm and happy birthday and also to be able to handle form 5's stress well enough this year. SPM! All the best to you two. HUGS!!!

Ah, everyone grows old so fast. :)

Oh and you, yes you.

You're driving me mad. I cant sleep nor eat well. But Im loving it.
Its a love story, baby. Just say yes. ;)
Superryan

2009-01-31T00:58:00.015+08:00

Dear readers,

Im back! Penang was awesome. I've gotta say it was one of the best trips there. :)

And I had around 10 Char Kuey Teows during the whole time I was there. D:

Fats.

Oh btw, anyone offer to cut my sideburn? Its getting messier and messier. Sigh.

It's funny, how you miss her even more and more after each and every time you both met and no matter how long you spent your day with her, you just start to miss her all over again by the end of the day when she walked through her door.

Love,
Superryan.

Today is a Winding Road..

2009-01-24T13:05:00.003+08:00

Dear readers,

Heading off to Penang once again for CHINESE NEW YEAR! :)

Take care alright? And may all those who are heading back to their hometowns too have the safest journey. God bless.

Enjoy CNY! Ang Pau Jeh Jeh Lai!

Love,
Superryan.

20th of January?

2009-01-20T02:03:00.004+08:00

Dear readers,

Happy Sweet 16th Birthday CHAN CHAN MEMORIES!

Hohoho 2 days right after mine this fellow green-freak celebrates her birthday too! Anyway, God bless you in whatever you do and may you give glory in all ur achievements this year!

And eh your phone turned pink. TREASON TO OUR GREEN-FREAKS SOCIETY!

*kicks*

Nvm at least u still have "green" parasites stucked in your braces. :P

And may your trademarked "innocent" look help you find a companion this year. LOL

Anyway Happy Birthday again Emily! And hope to see you soon!

:)

Love,
Superryan

Gratitude.

2009-01-19T01:33:00.004+08:00

90% lookalike XD

Now that I think of it. We hardly argued among each other. The only arguements I remember having with you all was way past before pre-trials.

Only God can express how much I love you all. Where on earth can you find such a tolerant and happy family? A dad who provides for the family unconditionally and understands his children and providing them with sufficient love, a mom who's ever supportive, cute and strong, a grandma who helps tidy up ur room everyday patiently even though it gets messy after a few hours and a sister who is ever understanding, loveable, supportive and tolerant?

And parents who trust me deeply and knows that i am very well known as Superryan.

I love you all, I really do. :)

Ice cream cake. :)

Dear D'Gen-y

I must say, great job. This is the first ever surprise party that actually SUCCEEDS in the past ZCF's history.

My lovely youths called up my parents and planned a surprise party with them. Sneaking into my house at 12am sharp while I was using the computer in my room and gave me a shocking surprise. I did not expect this A BIT. I was just expecting the typical wishing messages by them.

Thank you for the efforts youth, I am very moved by you guys. You guys are the one that drives me forward. I appreciate all of you!

Thanks for the ice cream cake too. It must've cost a bunch. And also my so called birthday card. It's awesome. :D

according to her, she actually bought this shirt and wore it specially for my bday celebration! aww!

Oi silly Chai! U were never unimportant OK!?!

: )

Words cant express how much you guys mean to me. It really cant.

Thank you for the birthday song, it was the best I've ever had. HAHA

And I owe you all speeches. :)

Superryan loves you all to bones.

Oh and MA TZI YING. I've read your post, I've never thought I did so much to your life. Surely whatever you posted encouraged me greatly and I thank you for it. Thank you Silver Sendiri. :)

And thanks to all who mentioned my birthday in their posts and also those who specially dedicated their post to me. Also thank you for all the sms wishes and tags in my cbox.

Thank all of you, who made my 18th birthday the best birthday I've ever had.

:')

Love,
Superryan.

P!

2009-01-13T18:18:00.000+08:00

Dear L License,

BYEBYE!! For real. :D:D

Love,
Superryan.

The Post.

2009-01-05T20:11:00.028+08:00

*Inhales deeply*

Well here it is. The post which I have planned on early of the year ( around May ) and finally reached the time to type it out.

This post, is to appreciate each and every moment, friends and family that I can remember. It might get a lil emotional but hey, we can afford some once in a while eh? :)

Let the retrospects begin. :)

This section is totally unplanned. A last minute thing :

First off, I would like to say that 2008. Yes, the year two thousand eight has to be the toughest year of my life. Well as they say life gets tougher as you grow older. It's indeed very true.

I started off the year pretty well. My studies were good ( my 1st semester was always good. Until after that >_> ) My social life was getting better. I was in the committee board for my Youth Fellowship, was one of the leaders of my school's cf, started getting involved in both's worship team, something I soughted for all 2007. And then I made/got close with a lot of friends and had great time with them.

Until my mid year's results came out. Somewhere after CF Camp.
(mind you. CF Camp 2008 was one of the best few moments of my life. I'll never ever forget the 4 days 3 nights. :) )

I failed most of my subs. If I dont fail them, I scored badly in them.

"SPM is near. Is this all you want to achieve for your final year in high school?"

Those were my dad's words when he saw my results. It was devastating to me. I cried and reflected upon it.

That's when alot of mind challenges came to me.

"You're weak Hsien Yoong."
"You're getting fat, Hsien Yoong"
"You cant study, you never can Hsien Yoong."
"You cant do this Hsien Yoong, you can't do that Hsien Yoong."
"Just give it up."
"Your guitaring sucks."
"You cant sing. Your voice is terrible."
"You're not a good leader."
"What can faith in God alone do? Dont be stupid."

and many more negative thoughts came to my mine when I reflected upon everything I've done for the 1st half of 2008. Helped by a very serious heartbreak. I was literally facing a psychological crisis and my spiritual life started going down the drain. I hid it from my friends and just lived as usual. Trying to overcome these problems. I was cheerful on the outside, emo on the inside.

"Why you permanently cheerful one?" Someone asked.

Tch.

And that was when Superryan illiterally died.

I was devoured by my own weaknesses. Weaknesses I had never have the ability to overcome and it was killing me badly.

I hated my weak, timid personality.

And then I tried to study hard. But I was beaten flat by my lazy nature.

Pra-percubaan SPM was another failure.

SPM was so near. I started to get sleepless nights and panicked over it every once in a while.
This was probably the worst moments of my entire 2008/life.

If it's not because of my friends. I wouldn't have made it.

Thanks to a few of them helping me in my studies. And helped by "bocors" provided by them, I managed to get 6 credits for Trials. That itself took away LOADS of burden off my shoulders.

After that was plain studies.

I neglected God out of fear of worldly things.
I kept lying to myself.

"Skip devotions ni ma. As long as I keep faith that God exists. It's enough already."

Well thanks to intensive studies, I managed to pull through SPM with confidence. And I promised God I would go back and fix my spiritual life.

I had confidence I could pull it through. I was wrong.

I was never the same devoted, faithful lover of God I once was. Even if I tried hard to get back. I couldn't.

Once again I was facing another tough obstacles in my life.

But they did say "faith alone can move mountains." So I kept them.

"Hey December 28th got youth camp by Yong May's church. You wanna join ar?"

Asked Clement, my youth leader early december. I love camps, so I thought : why not go for some recreation?
The thought of learning God's words never came through my mind.

So there I was, at the camp 8 days ago. Expecting funs and laughters.
Still learning God's words never hit my mind.

I was practically dreaming and solving "Word Search" on the camp's booklet on the first session of the camp.

*Proudly showed my completed Word Search to my youth leader*
"Yeah la, but I bet only 30% of what the pastor said entered your head."

He was wrong. It was less than 10%.

Little did he know that those words he said was the turning point of my downfalling spiritual life.
I started paying attention for the rest of the camp's sermons.

And on the 3rd session, that's where God worked in me.
It was when I was never more glad that I made a choice and came to this camp.

Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with
God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith
into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory
of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that
suffering produces perserverance; perserverance, character; and character, hope.
And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our
hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
Romans 5:1-5

Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses so that
Christ's power may rest in me.
2 Corinthians 12:9

Verses given by Pastor Kelvin. Camp Speaker.

Wow, just wow. To think that whatever challenges and hardship I went throughout the year was a build-up by God to finally put an enormous impact in my life by the end of the year?

Wow.

Thank you father, truly you have saved me. :)

I think have said enough for this section. There's so many things left unsaid but if I don't stop now I wouldn't be able to finish this post ever. ;)

Now for the planned section :

2008 was a year that my social life had a boost. Not only did I made wonderful friends. I got closer to most of my friends and eventually got myself a few true friends. Though I have graduated from Seafield and wont be seeing them that much already, yet I have faith that our friendship will prevail.

True Friendship Never Dies. :)

This section, is my thanks to all of you for being a blessing in my life for this whole year and many years to come.

Here I go.

My one and only Family.

Thank you for being there for me and provide me with sufficient family love to get me through hardships throughout the year. Thanks for all your supports. Especially you two mom and dad, thanks for caring for me and understanding me near the SPM period. Thank you for providing for the family!

Love you all!

Puan Ung Lee Lan ( the one in black jacket ), the best teacher I've ever came to.

When I first found out that you were going to be my English teacher this year. I thought my whole form5 life was finished. Infamous for your strictness in discipline and because you were the main discipline teacher, the whole class was stiff and somehow very "disciplined" on your very first class. But we were the contrast after attending few of your classes because surprisingly, you dropped your discipline teacher's status and taught as a normal teacher the moment you entered the class. Pn Ung, that was the most impressive thing I've ever seen a teacher do. And dont worry, your classes are far more den interesting. You're a very good teacher Pn Ung. Not just in the sense of teaching, but in a sense of being a teacher a student can look up to. I would like to thank you for all the near let-offs you gave me when I broke one of the school rules. I thank you for all the advices you gave me both when I was caught to your office and when in class. Truly it is a blessing to be able to be taught by you and also to be able to meet you in your office whenever I am caught doing something wrong. I believe you made a difference in my life, Pn Ung.

I wish all the best for you and your family. :)

Clement Cheng, my graceful youth leader.

First off, I would like to say you did a really good job as a leader this year. Thank you for being a sheperd to the horde of inexperienced youths and guiding them along the right path for the whole year. God will truly bless you for all ur effort and love u've put into the youth. Also, thank you for being a positive influence to me. Without you, I wont be pushed to finish some of my tasks and keep slacking. Without you, I wont have transport to church for music practises and many other occasions. Without you, I wont pay attention in Yong May's camp and make a turning point in my life. Sorry for keeping calling and will still call you Gaylord for the days to come. I know, "respect your leader." XD Thank you for being patient with me all these while.

Clement, thank you. :)

Susan Tan, my pat gua good friend.

Seriously, you are of the most busy body person I've ever met. But that also makes you right? Anyway, thank you for being so busy body over my personal issues. Indirectly you helped me share my problems.
Even though I think you didn't notice over the joy that you have received vital informations about me. LOL. Anyway, thank you for all the advices on girl's psychology. It helps alot. XD Thank you for helping me with stuffs Im not familiar with during youth meetings or plannings. It's been a pleasure working with you throughout the year. I also enjoyed teasing you with *ahem*. Thank you for being patient about it. Haha.

I believe there will be more to come for our friendship. Mrs C***h. ;D

Xien Puo, my strict but mischievious ex-Cf President friend. :)

"Hey come here, let's talk."
Those were the words I dreaded the most from you during our form3 times. Whenever you do that and I obeyed. I would be overflowed by stories/lecture/preaching about God's word. So I would always avoid you if possible. But little did I know that if it wasn't for you, my spiritual life won't be where it is now. XP, thank you for taking all your time to follow-up with me when we were form3. Thanks for the talks and nags. Thank you for standing up for Christ and thus set an example for me. You were always a role-model for me in my spiritual walk with Christ. It was thanks to you I was able to strive and grow rapidly spiritually and stand up and a Christian leader in such a short time. Without you I wouldn't have made it. Thank for being strict with me and also pointing out my mistakes often, it helps make me a stronger man. Not only spiritually, you were also a fun guy to hang out with. All the nonsense we did on CF Camp and so on, I wont forget it. Now that we've graduated. I hope we will still be meeting with each other and just like the old days, talk about nonsense, Christianity, football and football manager. :)

I know you'll somehow read this, blog stalker. ;D

Till we meet again, Xien Puo.

Carlson Chee, my fellow creative minded true friend.

You still reminds me of that Hong Kong star, and you know who it is? Haha. Anyway this fella, knew him since form1 through a very typical sport: basketball. Ever since then, we have been doing alot of mischievious stuffs together.

"EH ENCIK SELVA!!"
*Flees*

Haha, memories from our "semangat main bola days." After form3, I never expected that we would still be close. In fact, closer. Carlson, thank you for being so understanding and generous.

I still remember my form3's birthday. You were so considerate to wish me with a strong slap on the back but the then foul mooded me scolded you off for it. LOL. So sorry XD

Thank you for being the loudmouthed yourself and crack us up doing all those nonsense yet funny stuffs when we hang out.

"Woohoo! I got your bottle!"
*Slips and fall*

HAHA! Anyway, I'll never forget how we always go "Let's heart to heart talk!" and somehow ended up in stairs talking bout our problems and stuffs. When we were at pyramid late at night playing with the trolley. When we were studying together at XP's apartment and all the stuffs we did there. Thank you for being in my life.

"Komunist yang bernama Franz Ferninand." HAHAHA!

I know this sounds childish but, True friends forever. :)

Eugene Ho, my the-one-mole human punch bag true friend.

Your mole, was the brightest of all the colors~ XD
Ahem, anyway Gene-san. I dont know why, but I find you one of a kind. Not because of your enormous mole. But because of your temper that seems to have no boundaries. I can tease you, bangcock you, sometimes release anger on you and bully you but you're still the calm and cheerful Eugene. God knows what could be going in your mind but Gene, that is one vital asset to have in your life, patience. Its okay to be angry inside but what shows outside is more important. And that is the one thing I respect and love about you: To be able to withstand teases and crititism from others. I want to thank you for being there as a punch bag for me whenever I need to release some stress. Not just that, you also play a significant role in my life. Though you tried but failed but thank you for your effort to try and share problems that I sometimes preferred to keep it to myself. Thank you for being caring and making the effort to be everyone's great friend. But Gene, you ARE already our true friend. :)

I love your typos, your act-cuteness and your tendency to give lots of excuses.

That what makes you Eugene, Gene. ;)

Lim Kok Ping, wonderful classmate for 2 years and my true friend.

Kaki ponteng, booze lovers, football lovers, checking chicks out together, once being crazy over one chick together, slim down together, being vain together and many more. These are the few things that I'll never forget doing with you bro. You have been a real blessing to my life and a very good friend. Thanks you for being there and sharing problems with me and also gossips. It was pure fun. Not forgetting out brothers Yat Zhoong, Ju Ee and Shen they all. Man, those were the days. Haha. Well I guess we've gotta move on with life after all eh? But bro, I pray our friendship will last even till we're old dude. :)

All the best in life.

Chai Shing Yin Superchai, my sidekick. ;D

Well well well, this girl here. What is there to say? I didn't really like you when I first met you. I mistaken you to be an arrogant and very bimbo girl. But I was VERY VERY wrong. After knowing you for some time, I changed my mind. You were an angel. You are a wonderful friend. Though as young as you are. You are able to think and act even better than me sometimes. You dont live like your age. Which is something to be impressed about. I miss those days when we would just have fun, crap around, gossip and just spill problems and solutions. I really miss them. Thank you for giving me advices on those particular incident. You've helped me prevent things from getting worse. Thank you for being one of the friends that I can never ever meet another. :) Thank you for being there.

And I miss you too. :)

Chai Shing Queen, what can I say?

"Longkang!"
Do u still remember it? It was the very reason that we actually knew each other. Haha. You were one of the person that I've never thought I would get to know to. But thanks to Longkang, I did. God's grace eh? Anyway, most of what I want to say. It's already on ur birthday letter. ( If you still have it ) I dont wanna get too corny. Haha. But there's still more to it. Half a year has gone pass anyway. :) You might not notice it. But thanks to you. I've learned that love and friendship is inseperable. That love without friendship is desaturated, colorless. Your highness, thank you for being considerate to me and very much caring. Though we havent met each other for ages. Our friendship still lasts, and that's what's important. I promise I'll pay u visits as often as possible. For you have given me the most important lesson in my life: you taught me how to love. And I thank you for it.

And please dont worry about me now that it's over. Let's be happy people alright? No more worries! :)
True friends forever! Miss you!

Hugs!

Mr Chuah Tse Yuen, my best friend.

Five years it has been eh? You were the Mr Cool Guy sitting at the corner of the class and I was the fat guy Bi Hung was bringing around.

"Eh Tse Yuen, this is Hsien Yoong."

Little did we know that a great friendship was born after this.

I felt a little bad that we actually alienated the person whom without him we wont be friends and things wud be different. But ah well, what's done is done. There's a lot of things to say. But I dont know how to say them. It's like those words which you can picture in your heart but can never say them out. They're something like this. I'll try anyway.

Apart from Bi Hung whom I knew through std6's tuition, you were the FIRST friend I've ever made in Seafield when we were form1. Ever since then, our relationship gotten closer thanks to Grand Theft Auto, MSN Messenger and of course, basketball. There were so many silly things that we did. ( Silly enough to be memorable ) So many that I couldn't describe all. But well, we talked about most of it at the bus the other day didn't we? Those days, I'll always remember.

Thank you for being my best friend, sharing probably everything with me. Except the same girl of course. :P
I notice we seldom talk online, but when we do. It'll be a heart to heart talk. If not, it would be an invitation for a Warcraft game. Haha. But nevertheless, we're inseperable when we're together. Haha.

We are so close, we have this mutual understanding. To be honest, even if i didn't post all this up. You would know what I want to say about you wouldn't you?

Anyway, I believe our friendship really went up a hike this year. I dont know why. But it did. And I appreciate it.

Best friends forever! So bimbotic. XD

Last but not least,

Felicia Low Swee Chin, my one and only Hyppo :)

That was our first picture together on the day we started knowing each other. XD
I can even remember the first words that you spoke to me.

"Yerr, so chubby la!"

Haha, that's how the picture came about. XD
Anyway, it was not Int IU that got us close isnt it? It was friendster :D

"OMG LA JI TONG ADDED ME. D: D: D:"

Hahahaha memories la dei. XD
And then we started our lame war. Counting points for every good comeback we give. You always lost to me. Only a few round you'd win me and other than that, points you get were always when I gave you chances. We stopped doing it at around 150 - 15 didnt we, Swee Chin?
Anyway I forgot why, but you started calling me wolf. Of course, being the usual "tak mau kalah" me. I named you Hyppo! Hyppo instead of hippo so that my name's in it. LOL. Anyway I never told u why I picked Hyppo over so many other animals. It was because at that time, I thought you kinda look like a hippo. :D

Dont worry, hippo's are cute. Trust me. ;D

Swee Chin, I didnt know how important you were to me till recently. I just want to thank you for being there for me, my 24 hours massage service all the time. Thank you for being there with me when Im down, trying your best to comfort me even though its something you're not good at. Thank you for being there to share my joy too. I know I always bullied you and never let you win in any arguements we had and I find myself annoying sometimes. Im sorry if I did annoyed or hurt you in any way Swee Chin. Thank you for being patient with me.

One of the things I hate the most about myself is for being possibly one of the blurrest person on earth. You'd always hide your feelings and never tell anyone about you being emo all the time. But sometimes you would show it. But as blur as I am, I will never realize it until you're already feeling fine. I always blamed myself for being so blur. Sorry Swee Chin, for not being able to be there for you when you're down while you were always there for me. Im very sorry.

I have never regret the fact that I knew you. Because you were possibly one of the best gifts God has ever bestowed upon me. I cherish you Swee Chin, I cherish you more than a treasure's worth. I would die than to lose you. Because you know, you're irreplacable. Love you Swee Chin, and thank you for being the gemstone of my life. :)

Thank God I've met you.

After hours, Im finally done. It was hard work. But it was worth it. Sorry if I left anyone out. But nevertheless you would have still played a part in my life.

Everybody plays a part in everybody's life. Even if we don't notice it.

:)

And my resolution for 2009?

Just, to be a better man. :)

Love,
Superryan

2009-01-05T20:06:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

Im back! :D

But my post on 2008 is yet to come.
(thanks to my comp's graphic card that kong-ed when i was planning to write on this post)

Well it's never too late isn't it? Just wait for it. :)

Love,
Superryan.

Going, Gone, Gone Away, Love.

2008-12-27T23:05:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

Im heading off to camp tomorrow for four days at Melaka! And then I'll be going back to Penang right after that on 1st of January for another four days. That means 8 days not being at home. :(

Im gonna get so homesick. ( More of bedsick lol )
(btw, my bed is one of my favourite asset. Lie on it and u'll confirm sleep in the next 5 mins. :D )

Anyway u guys dont miss me ok? If you do, send me a text message or something. Dont worry, I THINK I'll be able to come online at Penang. Provided I stay over at my uncle's house.

Till then. :)

Oh. Pictures update on my youth's Christmas party @ Tse Yuen's house!

Finally met her after months!

Her too. :)

Gila-gila crew.

"Lucky" Eugene. XD

Modelling Session:

MNTM. LOL

Gay models.

He spoiled it!

This is what I call SUPERmodels. :P

Esther and I.

Ladies' man. LOL

That's about it. And oh yeah. Two of my fav Christmas presents this year:

Got it from a gift exchange. Im a blessed man. :D

From Tse Yuen. :D

That's all. Im going for a little gaming and then pack before I go to sleep. :)

See ya all in 8 days! ( Or 4 days )

Love,
Superryan

P.s : How UNLUCKY can someone get?

THUN THUN THUN!

2008-12-24T00:39:00.003+08:00

Dear Readers,

This blog seems to be dedicated in wishing people during their birthdays, eh?

Anyway, the lucky girl to be appearing on my blog today ( and also having her birthday on Christmas Eve ) is.......*drum rolls*

*dramatic pause*

....

....

*wait for it....*

....

*keep waiting*

....

....

*Isit Christmas already?*

....

....

....

*Oh dang this is getting boring. Let's get over with this*
(but not without four more dots.)

....

Ok I know it was lame but...

TADA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy 17th Birthday Cherie Koh Ching THUN!
(and im turning 18 soon already :P )

ANYWAY, u're finally legal to get your P license already. ( Which seems to be the trend nowadays for ppl aged seventeen >_> )

And......drive safely wth. XD

Crap Im out of things to say.

Well, have fun celebrating your birthday on this CHRISTMAS EVE and get PRESENTS again tmr. :DD

All the best,
Superryan

Haywire Brain.

2008-12-22T00:14:00.010+08:00

Dear readers,

Im finally going for my on-road JPJ exam tomorrow. :D

And I'm very very sure that I'm not freaking out...yet.
Gosh, im excited! Excited to get my P and drive around with friends. :DD

All the best to me!

I can finally get rid of the fugly L license. >_>

I FREAKING FAILED. ( Of all times to die engine. >_> )
I guess I was a little overconfident. Well, taking it again on January 5th.

AT LEAST I FAILED FROM NOT PAYING THE BRIBE MONEY. :D:D

and I got tagged by Carlson and Pingggggg!

1.What's your most favourite colour?
Need to say meh? ( For those who barely knows me : green. :D )

2. What is the most important to you?
Love. :)

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
With love, it's impossible. ;D

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
Only in things im familiar with. :S

5. How many babies you want?
TWO! Elder girl and younger boy. <3

6. Have you found your so called THE RIGHT ONE?
I..dont know.

7. What is your goal for the upcoming year?
To be a better man. :)

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
JESUS!!

9. Who are your best friends?

:)

10.What are you really afraid of?
SNAKES! No seriously. I have ophidiophobia.

11.What is your bad habit?
Slacking.

12. What's your opinion with Distance relationship?
Hmmmm if we're distant for only like a year or two. Its ok with me. But if its for ten or twenty. That, I have no comments..yet.

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES!

14. What activity u love to do most with ur loved one.?
If u're saying friends: having VERy enjoyable moments with them.
If u're talking bt family : When we're able to come together and spend time with each other.
If u're talking bt "the girl" : Every moment with her will b a moment I love. :)

16. single or in a relationship?
Single *winks*

17. What you want to achieve most in life?
Be a good son, have a decent job and a happy wife with cute happy kids.

18.What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?
Being surprisingly humble in times.

19. What is the worst case scenario happen to you in your life?
Losing my father's trust back when I was form four. Gah.

20 . Are you in love ?
:)

instructions: Remove one question from above and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 5 people. List them out at the end of the post.Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all. ( I didnt do this. Lazy. - Superryan )

tag,
Pok
Kp
Supercq
Kian Hui
Fart Monster

Love,
Superryan

P.s : Help make my mind straight please...

Simple's Special Day

2008-12-19T00:00:00.010+08:00

Dear readers,

Celebrated someone's birthday at Melissa's house today. Who is it? It's none other than our S-I-M-P-L-E

VANISSA NG KAI YIEN ( NG family FTW! :D )

Happy Sweet SEVENTEEN ( make sure i got it right this time wth.) Ah Sa. ;D

I DO NOT recommend Tiger Beers. Tastes too heavy if drank raw. Suck. Even Carlsberg's better.

Budweiser and Heineken's still rocks :DD

Oh I'll update abit on my trip to Sunway Club on Tuesday. :D

I met Spiderman in REAL LIFE there! He was web swinging from a wall to another. No seriously, dont believe? I'll give you a proof through PHOTO.

It's not photoshopped. Seriously.

And the below photos and video are explicit and STRICTLY 13SX.
Watch at your own risk.

FUN IN THE MALE'S SHOWER

This fella freaking smart I tell you. He used someone else's badminton racket and placed his wet underwear on it to dry it with air-con as shown above. >_>

Introducing the sexy Mr. Eugene and Ju-Ee! :D

Got video some more. ( I know. wth.)

Enjoy ladies. ;D

Love,
Superryan

p.s : Surprise parties never work out.

Marry me Juliet. :)

2008-12-17T23:56:00.007+08:00

Dear readers,

Personally, I L-O-V-E the song Love Story sang by Taylor Swift. But disappointingly, it's irrelevant to me since it's like a girl-sided song.

So in order to not put the song's sweetness into waste. I made a guy-sided version out of it! :DD

I didn't change the meaning of the song tho. Just made it relevant for guys. Here goes

Love Story ( Edited for guys ) - Taylor Swift
Altered by : Seth Ryan Ng Hsien Yoong

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
Im lying down
On a grass field filled of Summer air.

I see you there
Looking good in your ball gown
Puffed up my chest and made my way through the crowds
I said Hello
Little did I know

That you were Juliet you were my one and only
But your daddy said stay away from Juliet
And it hurts me to see you crying and telling me
Please don't go. And I said

Juliet, let's go somewhere we can be alone
Hold my hand and never let me go
I'll be the prince and you'll be the princess
Its a love story. Baby, just say yes

So I sneak out to your garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they know
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Cause you were Juliet and there'll be no one else
But your daddy said stay away from Juliet
And it'll take everything
For me to just put you down and go. So I said:

Juliet, let's go somewhere we can be alone
Hold my hand and never let me go
I'll be the prince and you'll be the princess
Its a love story. Baby, just say yes

Juliet dont cry, I understand how you must feel
This love is difficult, but it's so real,
Don't be afraid
We'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes, oh

I got tired of searching
Wondering if you were ever still around
But my faith was never fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town. And I said

Juliet don't leave, stay forever in my heart
Let it be your strength, your home, your throne
This will be the moment, I dont want to miss the chance
I knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said:

Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh

Cause we were both young when I first saw you

:)

Love,
Superryan

Superryan does a tag!

2008-12-15T19:11:00.009+08:00

1. Post a picture of you and someone.

2. Describe that person.
- Lame, siok sendiri, suka cari pasal ngan saya, pendek, lion cub, blurr, terlalu secretive, senang ditipu and theeeeeeeeeeeeeen..caring, always there, cheerful, handles and hides emotion rather well, comfortable to be with, chubbier than me combined with her stupidity, own sense of siok sendiri-ness, lion hairstyle, lame-ness makes her too cute to be true. :)
( confirm fly d someone :P )

3. Describe anything between you two.
- Hmmm, use your imaginations. I malas :D

4. Post up ANY picture that you think it's interesting.

5. What is that picture about?
- HAHAHA it talks for itself. XDXD

6. Why you think that picture is interesting?
- Sangat padan hahaha.

7. Who took that picture?
- Come to think of it. I forgot. lol

8. Picture of Christmas.

9. Describe about it.
- The true purpose of Christmas. :)

10. Who/What were in that picture and what mood were they in?
- Random people praising Jesus. :D

11. Where was that place and are you looking forward to go back to that place?
- No idea. o_o

12. Post a Candid Pic.

13. When was that?
- CF camp 2008 <3

14. Give a caption.
- My cute ass + a human trying to fly away from someone who's going to ram him with his head.

15. Who was that photographer?
- Pok, I think?

16. A Picture of you doing something you don't really like.

17. What activity was that?
- Saving the world. :(

18. Why were you doing that?
- Because I was bestowed with this big burden the day I was named Superryan. :(

19. Could that activity be replaced?
- Aduhhh, sadly no. Eh? wait, maybe my new sidekick, supercq cud help me in it. :DD

20. Tag 5 friendly bloggers.
- Fel
- Supercq
- Lam Shu Ying
- Candy
- Kok Ping

BloOoOooOooOOop!

2008-12-13T00:21:00.008+08:00

Dear readers,

Exactly one year ago, this little girl (ok mayb not so little anymore) made her debut appearance in this blog for a particular reason. Today, she's up here again for the very same reason.

HAPPY SWEET ~~SIXTEEN~~ FIFTEEN (FREAKING PAISEH D: ) CLAIRE MA TZI YING
also known as Silver Sesame to me and Fish/Fishy/Fish Fish to others. :D

One year older but you still look the same old kiddo Tzi Ying to me :P

May God guide you for your 15th year on earth. :)

*FAMOUS SUPERRYAN'S HUG!*

Love,
Superryan

p/s: Not to tease but she really looked like a kid in the photo above. XD

2008-12-11T15:15:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

I went Pyramid and watched Bolt.

BOLT IS JUST TOOO CUTE! :DD

and this too.

One for the Ringgit notes and one for the coins. :D
And guess the owner? :P

Oh and wad do u think about the new layout? :)

Love,
Superryan

p/s : I found my new talent, color matching! :DD

We Getting Old. :)

2008-12-09T23:27:00.001+08:00

Dear readers,

Today is the 9th of December, which means..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDRENNE!

(ill never forget all the pinches, whacks-on-dick, whacks, nippleliser you gave me. I promise.)

Celebrated her bday at Station One. :)

Oh and taking pictures with low lights surroundings with a phone's camera = bad, bad quality. =.=

And this guy here, Ju-Ee,

Mr Scandalicious. Why?

Tsk tsk love's flowers are blooming~
(That's Hui Min btw. Class' joke for 2 straight years. :D )

And apparently, I found myself a sidekick.

Like master like dog. Meet SUPERFLUFFY! ( See, even Fluffy knows the superman's pose. With a lil help of course XD )

:DD

Still having good times. ;D

"*on the phone* I can't hear you. Can you screeeam?" - Ju-Ee

Love,
Superryan.

Tada!

2008-12-06T02:09:00.002+08:00

Hai! Updating for the sake of cQ! :D

First off,

LIFE'S PRETTY DAMN GOOD AT THE MOMENT! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

*cheers*

Ok bye!

Hah got you there didnt I? Im not ending yet!

Anyway Im thinking of changing the theme of my blog to something..very simple. :D

And thus I've came up with a very creative and spectacular name/theme for my blog:

NOTES FROM SUPERRYAN!

HOHOHOHO MASTERPIECE!

Anyway the idea of this theme is that I'll say bye bye to all the "super-long-post-to-describe-how-my-day-went-with-alot-of-flowery-pictures-hooray" posts. Instead I'll go something simple like..a note? Just like postcards! :D

Of course I'll make long posts if Im in the mood. But it will only happen in blue moons I reckon. HAHA!

Anyway tell me about it. Still considering tho. And right, I dont think I wanna change my blog url if I do change the theme tho. Save some trouble. Whaddya all think? :)

Tell me about it!

Till then, let me enjoy my post spm life. WOOT!

SUPERCHAI attack!

2008-11-27T13:10:00.000+08:00

SUPERCHAI = super dooper gorgeous,fabulous, fantabulous SHING YIN!

yeap.. tat's me!. haha
superryan skrang tengah sibuk ngan exam.
budak tu tngh stLessss.(stress)
see....

HY : dun mess with me!! or i'll eat u up!

so.. ako di sini tolong budak tu update blognyer.
minta maaf ya jika bm ako x berape bagus.xD

baru abis tengok CONNIE TALBOT kat you tube AGAIN!
ooooohhhh.. tersentuh hati ako.

gotta get back to englishee.

NG HSIEN YOONG!

U CAN DO IT!

*shake ur booty*

U CAN DO IT!!!!

ur supporters are awaiting u outside skul with BANNERS!!

so b CONFIDENT n PROUD!

yea!!!

Love,

Chai.

2008-11-26T17:46:00.005+08:00

白色风车 - 周杰伦

白色的风车安静的转着
真实的感觉梦境般遥远
甜甜的海水复杂的眼泪
看你傻笑着握住我的手

梦希望没有尽头我们走到这就好
因为我不想太快走完这幸福
很可惜没有祝福当爱你并不孤独不会再让你哭

我背你走到最后能不能不要回头
你紧紧地抱住我说你不需要承诺
你说我若一个人会比较自由
我不懂你说什么反正不会松手
我背你走到最后能不能别想太多
会不会手牵着手晚一点再到尽头
你说不该再相见只为了瞬间
谢谢你让我听见因为我在等待永远

Translations Here

I was surprised when I saw your MSN display name popped out on my taskbar. I thought I accidentally clicked on it but the message notification came up. I fought the awkwardness and took enormous amount of courtage to reply. And I know you did the same thing too.

Thanks for the talk. It's been a long time, ex-boo. :)

This was our song, remember?

It's fun bringing back memories isn't it? Emotional but fun.

We were still young and foolish back then, haha.

Well then, till the next time we talk again, ex-boo. Or, friend. :)

p/s : remember our promise that day? I guess we didnt keep it. Not until today. Haha, we lost to our pride I guess. But nvm that, let's look to the future for now.

Surprise Visit?

2008-11-23T23:32:00.002+08:00

Ok, so I'm too busy and mainly lazy to update for the moment. ( At least until after SPM )

But I've decided I would still come back and reply tags by my VERY VERY faithful blog peers or visitors. : )

Until then, you can still find updates on me through the trusty and handy Plurk! Which I'd prefer very much over blogging since I can make short updates in a very short time. I might even ditch this blog entirely for Plurk one day. LOL, sry mates.

Aight, I'd be going. :)

Badabing-bing-bing!

2008-10-20T16:02:00.004+08:00

Wolf berry bread, hohoho.

Greetings! Fel here! : )

Hsien Yoong is currently... I don't know where, but most probably he's either sleeping or exercising.

I was ordered to update his blog a few days ago, but then again I was too lazy.
Haha, anyway his internet connection is down, but he'll be back soon. It's a sign from God that you should study ok! Haha, alright I'll stop here before I kena kao kao. ; )

Before I go, all the best, form 5's! Make this last examination in high school something great and memorable. While we, the form 3's will go have some fun first! Jkjk. XD

Cheers!

Fel
FREE PUBLICITY, come come! : D
(p/s : Couldn't help it, temptation. Thanks! : P)

SuperRyan went SHOPPING!

2008-10-02T23:28:00.002+08:00

And he bought....

:D

(dont wanna boast about the price. XD)
__________________________________________________________________________________

Read it Christians. You'll be blessed.

"Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ."
The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.
"You're a Christian, aren't you, son?"
"Yes sir," the student says.
"So you believe in God?"
"Absolutely."
"Is God good?"
"Sure! God's good, and I will Keep The Faith."
"Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?"
"Yes."
"Are you good or evil?"
"The Bible says I'm evil."
The professor grins knowingly.
"Aha! The Bible!" He considers for a moment.
"Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help them? Would you try?"
"Yes sir, I would."
"So you're good...!"
"I wouldn't say that."
"But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't."
The student does not answer, so the professor continues.
"He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him. How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?"
The student remains silent.
"No, you can't, can you?" the professor says.
He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.
"Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?"
"Er... Yes," the student says.
"Is Satan good?"
The student doesn't hesitate on this one.
"No."
"Then where does Satan come from?"
The student falters.
"From... God..."
"That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?"
"Yes, sir."
"Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything correct?"
"Yes."
"So who created evil?"
Again, the student has no answer.
"Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness. All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?"
The student squirms on his feet.
"Yes."
"So who created them?"
The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question,
"Who created them? "
There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.
"Tell me," he continues.
"Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?"
The student's voice betrays him and cracks.
"Yes, professor. I do."
The old man stops pacing.
"Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?"
"No sir. I've never seen Him."
"Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?"
"No, sir. I have not."
"Have you ever felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter."
"No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't."
"Yet you still believe in him?"
"Yes."
"According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that son?"
"Nothing," the student replies.
"I only have my faith."
"Yes, faith," the professor repeats.
"And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith."
The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of his own.
"Professor, is there such thing as heat?"
"Yes," the professor replies. "There's heat."
"And is there such a thing as cold?"
"Yes, son, there's cold too."
"No sir, there isn't."
The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.
"You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than - 458 degrees. You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it."
Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.
"What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?"
"Yes," the professor replies without hesitation. "What is night if it isn't darkness?"
"You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light... but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?"
The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be a good semester.
"So what point are you making, young man?"
"Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with and so your conclusion must also be flawed."
The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time.
"Flawed? Can you explain how?"
"You are working on the premise of duality," the student explains.
"You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?"
"If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do."
"Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?"
The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester indeed.
"Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?"
The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided.
"To continue the point you were making earlier, let me give you an example of what I mean?"
The student looks around the room.
"Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?"
The class breaks out into laughter.
"Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt the professor's brain, touched or smelt the professor's brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?"
Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers.
"I guess you'll have to take them on faith."

Night. : )

2008-09-22T23:30:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Cant stop laughing everytime I see this picture. XD
(p.s : only those who knows wad MILF means will understand it. :P)

Anyway, just a short update.

I noticed that I have been asking a lot of questions lately. I literally spammed all the questions I've been wondering about to friends around me till I can somehow sense that they're annoyed. XD

I don't usually do that.

I usually just sit back and ponder/ wonder things that my friends were discussing and I hardly voice myself to question my questions. So at the end of the day it'll just end up being a question mark at the back of my head.

But recently, every single thing that has a (?) at the back of it that comes through my mind never fails to escape my mouth. And I hear myself saying the the infamous

WHY?

alot lately. It's like the me now is trying to make up for the quiet me last time. But honestly, it ain't that bad. Just in a period of one week I had questions that's been in my head for months (even years) answered and my mind is much clearer on things now.

I wonder if I should stay this way?
(oh, crap.)

Anyway just a little warning to prepare my friends for the new and annoying Seth Ryan! HAHA!

Talk about HAHA-ing. Those who've watched Good Luck Chuck, you know the lead actor Dane Cook? Yeap that freaking lucky guy. He's actually a stand up comedian.

A f-r-e-a-k-i-n-g good one. Just one show of his books up the whole Madison Square Garden.

"Wow". Yes, wow.

So check him out! He's been helping me release stress for the past weeks.

Here's a vid:

Enjoy!

Cinderella

2008-09-18T16:17:00.002+08:00

I want to make something clear here. The reason I haven't been updating for such a long time's because I've been studying alot for trials and didn't find blogging necessary in my daily schedule. Not because I emo lol.

I've came to my senses and stopped emo-ing for almost a month already. Thanks for your concerns anyway.

Well anyway, finally an update! Hooray? lol
____________________________________________________________________________

I was inspired by Steven Curtis Chapman's version of Cinderella ( Click the "Cinderella" word for the song and lyrics ), which was dedicated to his 2 daughters, one which died at a tragic age of 5 in a car accident to create and write a whole different version of Cinderella. Of my own.

His was for his daughters, mine is for her. :)

While I was listening to that song, instead of picturing my future daughter I pictured her. I was really moved by that song and reading the lyrics somehow pushed me to altering them and make it into a love song. So I did, keeping some of the original lyrics in it because they made big sense and suit the song's situation perfectly.

I wrote this song based on "tiga latar masa" ( sorry, too much of komsas. ), the past, the present and ironically, the future. And I inserted one extra verse myself. Here's how the song basically goes:

Verse 1,2, Chorus 1 = Past
Verse 3,4 (verse 3 being the extra verse), Chorus 2 = Present
Verse 5 and Chorus 3 = Future

I remind you that this song's lyrics is totally inspired and altered from the original one.Except for the extra one verse. So credits to Steve Curtis Chapman.

I've always like to say thing before I show my works to people : Sorry if it doesn't make any sense to you. Im just writing my heart out.

Now then, enjoy.

Cinderella
Written by : Seth Ryan Ng
Idea and Originally by : Steven Curtis Chapman

Verse1:She sang and she danced
            To whatever song plays
            There's no words to describe her grace
            And I'm sitting there watching
            The beauty she holds strucked me down deeply

Verse2:The day's turned to night
            I said "I'd better go home."
            But she's pulling at me
            Saying "Hey, I need you
            There's a ball at the castle
            And I'm dancing with this guy
            And I need to practice my dancing

            Oh please, Ryan please?"

Chorus1:So I will dance with Cinderella
             Like it's the last thing I'm ever gonna do
             'Cause I know someday my heart would turn blue
             Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
             I'll remember each step that we took
             'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
             And she'll be gone...

Verse3:She said he's a nice guy and I'd be impressed
          She wants to know if I approve of the rest
            I faked a smile and said "Yeah, he's a charming man"
         But inside I'm dying

Verse4:She grabbed hold of my hands and pulled me up
            Looked me in the eyes and she said
            "He promised me another wonderful dance
            So I need to practise my dancing

            Oh please, Ryan please?"

Chorus2:So I will dance with Cinderella
              I will hold her hands tightly in mine
              'Cause I know someday we'll be apart
              Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
              I don't want to dance with no one else
              But all too soon the clock will strike midnight
              And she'll be gone

              She will be gone

Verse5:Well, she came to me one day with a ring on her hand
             Just smiling and telling me all they had planned
             She said, "Hey, the wedding's still seven months away
             But I still need to practice my dancing

             Oh please, Ryan please?"

Chorus3:So I will dance with Cinderella
              While she's still here in my arms
              'Cause I know something her prince never knew
              Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
               I don't want to miss even one song
              'Cause all too soon the time would come
              And I'll be gone..
              She'll be gone..
              We'll be gone..

              But I'll still...love you.

There. Isi hati aku terluah. :)

and to top up with this post. A tag by Kok Ping. :)

1. Six people to tag:
It's weird to start a tag with this. lol
Fel

Kian Hui
Eleena
Callie
Tzi Ying
Candy

2. Six things I'm passionate about:
My religion
Guitar
Worship
Bersenam
Love
Looking good. LOL

3. Six things I say too often:
What the heck man..
Huh?
Sien!
Cool!
Noob.
Fuiyo, chio bu sial. (LOL)

4. Six books I've read recently:
Reference books, Bible. Reread Angels and Demons, Fragile things.

5. Six songs I listen to again and again:
Cinderella - Steve Curtis Chapman
Beautiful - Phil Wickham
You Can Let Go - Backstreet Boys
Close To You - Carpenters
Solution - Hillsong United
Shout Unto God - Hillsong United

6. Six things I've learnt in the past:
Hate is easy, love takes courage.
Everything happens for a reason
No matter how powerful or how smart you are, you can't make the world a better place alone.
Our deepest fear is not that we're inadequate, our deepest fear is that we're powerful beyond measure. (Click for full quote.)
Friendship and love are inseperable
The thing that stimulates failure is that people give up when not knowing how close they were to success.

Done, back to study. :) Bye

Misere.

2008-08-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

If I'd die young,

I'd die because of heart ache.

"So emo." I know.

2008-08-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

I've decided to put LOVE down for the moment. Considering the situation both of us are in and for the sake of her happiness in her current relationship.

I've figured that I've done beyond what I should do. Anything more would just probably spoil her relationship and our's. So it's better that I remain stagnant.

Im just putting it down, Im not giving up, yet. :)

But I doubt it will work out. She still drives me nuts. :(

放下你以后并没有更自由.

Well then, all the best to me. *sighs, taps own back*
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Anyway, back to days ago.

Fel : Wolf! I buy new shoe d!
Me : Oh cool, I want one oso la. My current shoe quite old d.
Fel : Go buy la, then we opening ceremony together!
Me : Yea hor. But no chance la.

Then suddenly the thought that I haven't been going out with my family for quite some time came to my mind.

Light bulb lighted.

Me : Dee, Sunday u free? Can we go shopping?
Dad : Why?
Me : Oh cause I shop la what else. And we haven't been going out together for some time d.
Sis : Yay! Yea Dee let's go!

And wah-la! I went bought myself a new shoe. And some other nice stuffs of course. :P

Sorry for the small picture. But yeah, it looks exactly like that.

Funny thing here is. The shoe is the first thing that I hunt the moment I enter the shopping mall. But it's the last thing I bought.

So hard to find the right shoe la. :S

And guess what? After paying and everything. I checked out the box at home. It labeled every info of the shoe on the box and right at the bottom wrote :

WOMEN'S

WHAT THE HECK! But at least I can wear and it looks good. Thankfully it's a sneaker. =.=

Anyway Im signing off. bye.

Standing Ovation

2008-08-18T23:42:00.000+08:00

So Chong Wei lost, terribly. And people all around Malaysia hated him and flamed him for that either in blogs or MSN pm. But I SuperRyan being special, is gonna do something today. Praise him!

Seriously, I don't get most people. Try putting yourselves in CW's shoes. You trained hard, used all your guts and take part in the olympics. Went through low and high, gave out all your best and make it into the glorious finals. And ppl started praising you and put hopes on you. But on the finals, you just weren't on form. And you lost.

AND PEOPLE HATES AND FLAMES YOU AFTER THAT.

Do you feel encouraged to take part in major tournaments like this after that? How would you feel then?

If I was CW, I'd say :"Screw it. You think it's easy to make it into the finals? Then why not you take part next time? And face that unstoppable Lin Dan? This is it. Im not playing for Malaysia anymore. Hypocrites."

But nooooo, he did not say that. In fact, he apologized for his poor performance and offered no excuses to it. Plus he's even considering to take part in the olympics again despite his our countrymen flaming him in the face. And vowed to train harder.

Besides, the world number one. Lin Dan

credits to Gladys. ( My favorite picture of LinDan cos it shows how gay he is)

Is definitely on hot streak now and almost unstoppable. If you were to face the world's number one player and through his records you know that he's on a hot streak. And then all your nation puts their hopes on you for the first Gold medal for the country. And on that match itself, the crowd consisting 80% of Chinese cheered on "LIN DAN JIA YOU" and the cheer from your own countrymen can nowhere be hear. Imagine the pressure that you face. But CW took it gallantly and fought with all he had in the finals.

So he lost, so what? He proved that Malaysia boleh.

"He lost la, Malaysia mana boleh?"

Eh hello? If Malaysia tak boleh then how did CW bring Malaysia into the finals. FOR OLYMPICS.

Oh and in case you didn't know. CW won the first ever SILVER MEDAL for Malaysia in the MEN SINGLES category. Now that's an achievement.

So wake up, people. Stop blaming people but instead look at it from another positive angle first. Morons.

Sorry if you terasa. Just want to make people like these realize what morons they were. :)

LEE CHONG WEI, I'M PROUD OF YOU.

You can definitely make it in the next olympics. I know you can. After all, Malaysia boleh, right?

Oh, and you can read today's issue of Star's Newspaper on Chong Wei for more facts. :)

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Anyway exam's over and school's out! Yay!

But shiat, Trials coming in two more weeks. GAHHHHH!

And as usual, before I go.

Tagged by Eleena.

1)If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Depends on how she betrayed me. But I know she wont :)

2) If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
To have the green light to go for her.

3)What will your dream wedding be like?
Dream wedding? Her standing in front of me in a wedding gown. That's all :)

4) Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Not really. But come to think of it. MAYBE.

5)What's your ideal lover like?
I need not tell. :)

6)Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
If you love people, people loves you back. Now that's a blessing.

7)How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
I dont know. But Im still waiting. :)

8)If the person you secretly like is alreadt attached, what would you do?
Already did. And it's confidential :X

9)Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
Chong Wei's flamings? lol

10)Is being tagged fun?
If the tag's fun lol.

11)How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
A renown designer married to her. :D

12)Who are currently the most important people to you?
My true friends and of course, u know who. ;)

13)What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
Eleena? Actually Im kinda happy to find out that she too is a fellow Christian ;D

14)Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
Married but poor. That way, my wife and I can bond through our hard times earning for a living. :P

15)What's the first thing you do every morning?
*Checks clock* Oh man, it's really 6.15. ( I usually hope that when I wake up, the clock still shows before time. XD)

16)Would you give all in a relationship?
Not all, just my heart. :)

17)If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would i pick?
The one I really do fell in love with.

18)What type of friends do you like?
Accountable friends.

19)What type of friends do you dislike?
They are my friends. Why would I dislike them? :)

20)Tag 8 people
Kian Hui
Fel
Gladys
Pok
Kok Ping
Julia
Candy

Callie

Bye! :)

A pass, finally?

2008-08-07T22:11:00.001+08:00

I really need pictures like these. :)

Hey guys, sorry on the lack of updates. I have been spending most of my time either studying or finding a way to release stress. And sadly blogging is not one of the ways. :/

Anyway for the Passion post, I really want to do a detailed post on it of my own but I'll have to disappoint you. And since Felicia stole my "customers". I shall steal her hard work too. :P

Check out Fel The Hyppo for more on Passion World Tour KL.

Or you can check out 268 Generation Blog on Passion Conferences if you are interested. :)

Im really sorry :(

But hey, on the positive side. Thanks to my so called "intensive" studies, ( one and a half to two hours a day is intensive for people who dont really study like me ok? XD ) I've managed to pull through Add Maths quite well today.

Usually for Add Maths I would just look at the paper, TRY MY BEST to answer questions and turned out answering only one to two questions. Then fall straight asleep for the next 1 to 2 hours. And I usually only score single digit for Add Maths.

But guess what? I managed to answer 14 out of 19 questions in my Add Maths paper today! Of course, most of it may not be correct. But at least I knew I tried my best. SUPER satisfying ok? :D

Feel happy for me? :)

Anyway I reckon stress ball really DO work. Tried squeezing my sis' small ragged soft toy which she'd abandoned long ago. And boy, the relief.

My frustration, anger and unhappiness were literally squeezed out.

I feel super relieved now. :D But there's still Physics tmr. P-F-F-T

Still waiting for my stress ball. ;D

Indescribable.

2008-08-03T23:28:00.000+08:00

PASSION WORLD TOUR KUALA LUMPUR ROCKED!

Worth every Ringgit and effort I gave for the tickets and making it to the conference.

Truly a once in a lifetime experience. :)

Will post more about it soon. For now, time to get some rest. Pre-trials tmr! D:

Booo.

Taggy Post :D

2008-07-28T22:08:00.000+08:00

First of all, before I start doing tags.

I wanna thank FELICIA LOW SWEE CHIN AKA FEL FEL AKA HYPPO FEL AKA TSE YUEN'S PROPERTY for treating me sushi yesterday! :D

Fel, I still feel uneasy in the heart FYI. Hmph! I owe you one! RM40 not cheap ok?

Thanks alot! :)

1st Tag By Kian Hui

1. A picture of you at the most unique environment:

Describe the environment
Sitting there with no other noise except from the waterfall, peace.Perfect for thoughts. :)

2. A picture of you at somewhere you dislike :

-

Describe why you dislike that place
I love everywhere I go. : )

3. A picture of you with someone that means alot to you :

Who is that person & What that person did to you before
My true friends. : ) To write down what they did to me would be like writing a whole novel.

4. A picture of you with your best smile ( mouth open) :

Why were you smiling?
Cause it was Karen's birthday!

5. A picture of you with your best smile (mouth closed) :

Were you posing or natural smiling?
Natural smiling.:)

6. A picture of you with your lamest pose :

Give this picture a caption

Not for the Kids. XD

7. A picture of you with a person that stands on the top of your heart :

Is that person treating you like how you are treating him/her?
(censored for some safety reasons) Almost, but not quite. :)

8. A picture of you with some toys or cute stuff :

What are you with?
My twin? XD

9. A picture of you in white shirt :

Why were you wearing white instead of black?
Because mummy says so. :D

10. A candid picture with you and your friends :

Do you look good?
lol. i've got sexy back :D

TAG 10 PERSON

Lazy la.

2nd Tag. By Pok

10 persons I can think of right now..

1. Kok Ping

2. Felicia

3. Shing Queen

4. Tse Yuen

5. Shing Yin

6. Xien Puo

7. Pok

8. Susan

9. Clement

10. Tzi Ying

Who is no.6 having relationship with?
: XP? God. :D

Is no.9 a male or female?
: Clement. Male

If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
: Pok and MTY? That'd be pretty cute! HAHA

What is no.2 studying about?
: Felicia. Her LOVE. XD

When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
: Shing Queen. Last night. :)

What kind of music band does no.8 like?
: Music I like, no seriously. lol

Does no.1 have any siblings?
: Brother Kok has 2 younger brothers and 1 younger sister. :D

Will you woo no.3 ?
: Haha. :)

How about no.7?
: LOL. I dont mind. Pok :D

Is no.4 single?
: Tse Yuen. Presumely Taken. XD

What is the surname of no.5?
: Chai! SuperChai Shing Yin :P

What’s the hobby of no.4?
: Being funny. Ty :D

Does no.5 and 9 gets along?
: Not really, I mean they dont really talk.

Where is no.2 studying at?
: SMK Seafield. HORGHHH! Hyppo Fel!

Talk something casually about no.1:
: God Bless You Bro :)

Have you tried developing feeling for no.8 ? :
: Susan. Honestly, yes I had feelings towards her before.

Where does no.9 live? :
:USJ 18. Clem.

What colour does no.4 like? :
: Red. Ty

Are no.5 and 1 best friends? :
: Nope. Not even friends XD

Does no.7 like 2 ? :
: Pok liking Felicia? There's a POSSIBILITY. LOL

How do you get to know no.2? :
: Fel Fel. Through my chubby-ness. XD

Does no.1 have any pets? :
: Siew Man :D Kp

Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? :
: Pok-ily sexy. XD

What is no.10 doing now? :
Talking with God. MTY

I tag;

you wanna do you do. :)

Sometimes, I feel stupid making stupid decisions. : (